Woohoo... I have had my Cross Country yesterday. Guess what? I came out 2nd in place and received a large trophy but not as big as Amanda's as she was 1st. Let me briefly say about my experience. It was a cool Friday morning. I ate a light breakfast and was taken to MacRitchie Reservoir by my Dad. Soon, the compeitiors for the 3rd race prepared themselves and proceeded to the starting point. When I arrived at the starting point, I was simply so nervous to speak. Some of the compeitiors told me that they wanted to run with me. But, what's the difference of running alone and running with another compeitior? Soon, the race started and I started by going fast alittle to get away from the crowd. When i arrived in the forest, I already felt like giving up, a sense of giving up in me, but I didn't do so. When i arrived at the point where girls and boys go different routes, I knew that this part was the most difficult for me to overcome. There were so many rocks and they were especially large. I was crawling my way up and the muscles were like burning and they were hurting. This was the part where most people feel the strong urge to give up. However, I tried to keep focuse and went ahead to overtake Mabel. I jogged briskly and I was right beside Amanda. She realized I was there and she faster her pace. She stopped several times and I had to tap my hand on her shoulders to encourage her. When you are so exhausted, even lifting your hand is a difficulty to you, and I had to do that several times I guess. Amanda, my mei, and I jogged towards the finishing line and I somehow looked back and I saw my coach, Ms Lim! She actually came to run in our race, actually she had already hint to me that she wants to run and compete with me. I guess she thinks to highly of me but I think otherwise. Then today, I went to SRJC and i intended to support Amanda in her Frisbee game, I ended up playing inside the games. I played Captains Ball and won yet another trophy. Haha... really enjoyed my day today... especially in the morning with Amanda and her friends... Alright! See Ya!

Hmmm... Cross Country is just 2 days away... Ms Lim is so excited as she has expressed her feelings during our netball training today. She told us that she really hoped that we will take up the the top 15 in the race. In a msn chat with her a few days ago, she said she'll be rooting for me and all that kind of stuff.. instead of getting power from her encouragements, I feel stressed. She and my team-mates kept hinting or saying that I'll win and take up the first few places. I really hope or wished I can accomplish her wish or command... I couldn't accopmlish her wish this year as my team and I lost in the netball tournament. Thinking of it, I regretted not training hard enough last year and this year I had to suffer for it. However, half a year has passed and soon a year would pass and, I hope my team-mates and I would be back on the tournament court to beat our opposing team with veageance. I kept thinking these few days... I'm with a flu and it had been a week, I had taken my flu medicine and still I have not recover. I really, really pray that Friday, my flu will at least disappear in the morning and come back in the afternoon. I realized I'm afraid of challenges ahead... How?! " CHARLENE, C'MON BE STRONG! "

I feel like a failure today... I've never felt this way before. Today, during netball training, Ms Lim made us run around Punggol and to Hougang and back to school. I was put at the back to guide Hui Ee and those who slack behind. I kept telling them to ' Jia You! ' and to keep running but none of them seems to listen... so fed up at that time, when I've persuaded them several times already. When we were about to get back to school after the long 5km, I felt the sense of giving up but I didn't, don't know why... Well, I feel that my relationship with my team-mates are drifting apart or further. In school, my class, today, a girl could curse and swear at a teacher and even say it's her right to scold the teacher. I feel like helping the teacher but I couldn't do anything, plus she's a friend of mine. I am seeing my friends grow into monsters and I'm turning into one too... What can i do? Feel so helpless... my friends are scolding vulgarities in class and I can hear them anytime in class... I have even began saying the word ' Wah Lao! '

Grrr... so sicked of Sundays... It's always so boring and dull. My parents always leave us at home and go out by themselves. Wonder when will my life on Sundays ever brighten? Haha... but I'll get to sleep at home and rest through the day, however, I hate to slack. I believe slacking leads me to a disadvantage of myself, people are improving themselves all over the world and I'm here slacking...zzz... I hate the word " SLACKING! " So bored... grrr... Tomorrow, it will be back to school! Hurray! I'm kind of crazy today. Let me plan what shall I do the coming next Sunday. Oh well, I had better pray that the weather will be favourable to me and I can swimming with my family. Oh ya... Amanda, my netball junior is officially my mei mei...don't tell you how she became my mei mei, very funny. Alright... See Ya!

Today just had a training at MacRitchie Reservoir, I don't know why... but it's like I've run for many times till the distance that I ran seem short and quick. Maybe earlier on I was running at the back with Pei Wen they all and we were chatting, that's why I forgot how long was the journey. I'm so afraid, today when I was about to finish my run, i saw Ms Lim and it's like she was placing her hopes on me to win. Well, I pretty tired after that, I slept right through the afternoon. Oh ya... I just received news that I was 3rd in my class and 14th in the level. After all that hardwork, I still lost to Debbie by missing a point. I got 74.1, she had 75.1... She was 2nd in class. Alright... I will write till here...

Today is a fun but tired day for me... Ms Lim conducted games such as Captains Ball. Siew Hong told me to join their group so I did so. As you know they think I'm tall, so they stationed me on the chair to receive the ball whenever they wanted to score. I didn't even had a single chance of getting down on the parade square to play, I felt used. However, I'm not very fit today, still a little unwell. 2A also ended up competing and they had a fierce compeition with 2C. They were the victory and proceeded to the final session. Siew Hong and I were the Combined Class team and we had to compete against our class 2A. In the end, our team, C.C won. Classmates in my class began to say I and Siew Hong betrayed them and we should have joined the 2A class. Some people even asked me this lame question, " Why you grow so tall??? " How am I going to answer this particular question? I don't think I'm so tall, so many people out there are taller than me, so why should they think this way? Maybe I'm taller than them. Cross Country is nearing, and I'm still with a bad flu, I don't know how am I going run and be Top 10 in this condition? I had better get well soon...

Today is such a boring day... I don't think I will be going out later. Yesterday, I went to swim to tan myself, however when I arrived there, the weather changed and it became cloudy, the Sun was covered by the clouds and i didn't know how was I going to tan. Today, I intend to go East coast to cycle, but the weather seems unfavourable to me. I don't know why, ever since the exams ended, I seemed to become saddier and not happier. Only the day after the examinations, I was belated. My life seems to be in grey and black shades, don't know why...

I am so belated... my examinations are over. During the holidays, I intend to tan myself till I'm satisfied... Tomorrow, my parents intend to take me for a swim...hehe. On the other hand, when I think about the both of them, I can't help but keep brooding about it. Oh gosh... I haven't been exercising recently, I have to do something about it. I have recently watched a show ' Dolphin at the Bay '. The story is so saddening, so many crying about love. I intend to keep myself fully occupied during the school holidays... Alright.. shall stop here..

I am so sad... Chocolate hold Mei Xuan's hand... I saw it with my own eyes. Don't know what to say, hate both of them right now. I don't want to see them again. They have always walked home together, and I often see them. I don't want to see it... I am jealous... so heartbroken... the image of them together keep apearing in my head. Can't stand it... tomorrow is mine Mathematics exam and I am not really prepared for it. Alright... good bye

Hi there... once again. So scared of tomorrow... tomorrow may be the only opportunity to pursue my dream. I guess God knows I'm a indecisive girl, thus, he laid an opportunity right in front of me to grab it. I don't know how I will fare in tomorrow's selection, however, i noticed something. Some of the 4 chosen dosen't seem really bothered by tomorrow's event. I am so afraid the people in-charge of the selection, would take me away from Pei Wen and the rest. Ms Lim, how I wish you were there to aid us. But, you can't possibly run here and there and see to us. You are such a mummy to us if you really did that. However, you are always my mummy/ sister*, hehe. I am dead meat.. I know how to go there...but don't know how to come back... Maybe ask my dad to come and drive me.

Hi there... I have a piece of good news here. I've won the Chinese Handwriting Contest in first place for Secondary 2 level. Actually, I knew about it long ago... I was informed by Ms Zhang Lian. However, i'm sad that many have said that my handwritten piece that is on the board is not very nice among the other 2 pieces. Some even said that the teacher that had marked my piece had stamp pasted on her eyes. Forget about it! I don't care about what others think but only what i think and what god thinks of me. Recently, I have seen my netball coach, Ms Lim to be upset and she seems to be bothered by something. I can't help it and be concerned. She doesn't seems to be concerned about matters in netball, maybe because she is very busy. I don't blame her for that, however, she isn't very close to us, the Sec. 2 girls, anymore. I'm so sad... can't forget how happy we spent our time together last year, especially during the netball camp. It's very saddening but I know everything that we have will leave us one day. There's nothing I can do about it.

Aww... I'm growing fatter. I have been eating like a pig, the past few days. Guess what? I've gain weight, aww!!! Terrible!!! However, I feel happier eating like a pig, haha. I had better control my diet, later grow very fat. I'm having my English common test tomorrow... so scared! Ms Farah said that it is not going to be an easy one for us. Yeah! Tomorrow, we have PE and netball, time for me to lose some weight to get back onto track. Tomorrow, if Ms Lim is going to make us run 2.4 km around the school with time limit, I'm going to be dead meat! I have to meet the time limit of 10 mins! Faint.... Ok, see ya!

Hmm... today I have spent my time usefully. Debbie came to my house to do the project, we had a fun time playing and doing the project. Debbie read the message I wrote for her in a blog and gave me a surprised look, I was embarassed. After all, today was quite a pleasant day to me... My parents went out to OG and shop, they bought home many stuff. Yeah! Tomorrow is Cherine's birthday party, and my parents allowed me to stay there till 7 pm!, which was never allowed by them. We are going to play water bomb... woo hoo! 1 thing is... I have had a hard time getting her a present. Thinking about Chocolate, I sms him yesterday night and asked him about his relationship with Mei Xuan. He replied and said, " just friends loh ". I don't know why I am relieved, as I know even he dosen't have a girlfriend, I will not start a relationship with him. Alright... stop here for now..

Today, I have got stuff to keep myself busy. In the afternoon, I am meeting Debbie to do my ProjectWork. Same old thing, Wei Lin and Tiffany can't make it, Tiffany can only make it at 5 pm, so late. I dislike my father, he always see my little sister supreme to me. Nowadays, I get an award or good results in school, my father won't seems to care already, he'll just sign it and return it to me. Supposing its my little sister who have got it, he will definitely praise and praise non-stop. I am always asked to do the house chores, my elder sister or younger sister do them less frequent than me. I don't know what to say....

I am so sad... today isn't a splendid day for me. I didn't enjoyed the day. Worse still, my 2nd mummy has fall sick, she has a bad sore throat. I hope she gets well soon. These few days, my emotions are starting to take over. I have a doubt. Recently, everybody seems to see Chocolate and my best friend or team-mate, Mei Xuan together. Everyone is asking me what is my opinion. I guess they have went into a relationship. I don't know what to say... These few days, I keep getting to see Chun Siang more often and often, my feelings for him starts building up again. I don't know why I feel like seeing him in front of me right now. Everyone thinks I have no feelings for him already, but, the fact is, I can't control my heart. I don't know what is my place in his heart, maybe, it's not even there. I don't know why I am feeling like this right now, I am expressing myself now as I can't express my feelings verbally.I am concern for Mei Xuan as she has changed alot after the 1-week holiday, she is no longer the bubbly and cheerful girl I knew. I think it has something to do with boy-girl relationship stuff. Alright... I shall write till here..

Yipee! It's Saturday. Hehe, I just vacuum my house floor this morning, so tired, but my house has sparkling floor now. This saturday is not exciting at all, but i might say it is meant for me to rest physically and not mentally. I have to study for several upcoming common test next week. Having common test is now very common in my life right now. I am feeling blue right now at this moment. How I wish someone I liked for a very long time would appear right in front of me right now... so bored. I want to play netball now... or maybe play basketball with Chocolate or even new crush, Melvin. Arh... I don't want to get myself involved in relationships. My studies, Netball and friends comes first. Alright, my hand is still aching from the gym works yesterday, See Ya!

Today, I'm quite satisfied with myself. I have had netball training today, as it was raining, we proceeded to the gym. We, the netballers, done 3 sets of gym works and 20 for each. After the 2nd set, it was half and hour towards 4 pm, I thought Ms Kang was going to release us, but, she didn't. I have been doing all the gym works consistently without slacking and after the 2nd set, I was very exhausted and wore out. I forced myself to do the 3rd set, and managed to finished everything without slacking. I am very satisfied for what I have done today. Hehe... I got to know more about my junior, called Amanda. She reminds me of Tiffany, my humourous pal in class, I feel like laughing when I see her. What a cute junior I have! One more thing, Amanda, Xiu Ling and Petunia have very positive attitude. I'm sure they will be good netballers however, they may tend to slack if no one is to watch them. I have noticed Pei Wen, a junior of mine, she is pretty cold to me, most probably, she don't know me yet. There's 1 thing one should have in life, a positive attitude and a 'never say die' personality. Here's an advice to you all... when you don't feel like doing something or a task, find the passion to do it, find out why should do it, who you are doing it for, and what values you learnt from it. Egs. playing netball, I learnt that it isn't just game but it consists of teamwork and your hardwork. Another example, you vacuum the floor, what you gained: you kept the house floor clean. Hehe... so lame. Arh... so tired. My muscles are aching, alright, shall stop here..

Yoz... I'm here again. This time, I'm quite relax. I have finished most of my projects with the help of my pals in class. Today, I went to Debbie's house to do the project work. On the way there, I felt that I couldn't communicate with her. It's a kind of feeling, don't know how to explain it. It's all because she and I do not sit together in class and I seldom spend my time with her. We arrived at her house, and started on our project. As we do our project, we chat and talked more often and often, soon, we were chatting away. I learned something from this event. It is, every human being has feelings, they shouldn't be neglected and should be nurtured to be kept intact. I learned to cherished close ones as they may not be with us forever. This is a message to Debbie, my best pal: Debbie, thanks for helping me and aiding me in things I do, I am sorry for neglecting you in the past and I hope we shall be friends forever. Thanks alot! Another message for Wei Lin: Wei Lin, you are a great help to me. You helped me in my mathematics when I don't understand them and you aid me in my mother tongue too. Thanks alot! I really appreciate both of your help, but, I don't know how to express my thanks. OK, hope we shall stay as pals forever... Bye!

Hi everyone... it's already Tuesday. I have done mine Maths Test and I really have to admit something, don't last minute study. I couldn't finish the questions and I guess I'm ain't going to score well in this test. So busy these few days. Now, there's something to be jovious about... Netball training is back as often as last year. I have a busy schedule tomorrow, shall write till here then... Bye!

Ahhhh!!! So fast Sunday already... so sad, I haven't touch my books yet. I have slack tremendously, become a lazy girl. But, I know my limits and expectations of myself, so I shall study no matter what. Hehe, yesterday night, my dad took me and family to watch the Eye 2. It is not so exhilarating as the show the Eye. One thing for sure, pregnant women shouldn't watch, because it's about the spirit going inside the womb to become your BABY! Shu Qi sees the spirit and screams hysterically, people thought she was mental patient. Yeah! Later, I'm going out... See Ya!