Weather today: rainy and sunny. And it actually complemented to my mood for the entire of today. It was deplorably bad at the beginning and as it came to the end of the day, it got better. I always believed that we depend on ourselves when it came to such matters. Whatever it is, if you're sad, you got to do something about it. I won't exactly wait for others to pull my mood up or cheer me up. That said, I'm still very much dependent on debbie when it comes to studying. haha. And so, back to the objective. I decided that I had to do something at least significant today. I won't elaborate on it though. And I'm feeling a tiny bit better now about everything. :)

I can't wait to get back to netball training. I can't wait to run all my frustrations out. I can't wait to intercept some balls. Anyway, I'm back on court this saturday for training at VJC. I miss all those people whom I always see at trainings. PT, Hui juan, Charlene, Seok Kuan, Ms Lim, Ms Teoh, Sui hui, Sok hong and still so much more. Weird why I suddenly mentioned their names though. haha.

I just had a sudden awakening or something. I realized that I'm 19 this year already and I have yet to achieve anything worthy to my name. I have wasted so much of my life away. I want to do something worthy! All my time were spent tackling my emotional needs and crap and daydreaming. I feel totally trash.

And then all of a sudden, I have been thinking alot of xy. I wonder how she is doing. I wonder how we lost this friendship every now and then. I wonder how much her appearance in my life has affected me, has impacted me. And then I miss her so much. I reminisce those times she spent with me when I was downright trash. I sincerely wish her all the best from the bottom of my heart.

Good night people~ :)