Friday, November 28, 2008

Wow. It's been months since I last updated hur. Everything's changed, so many things which are so not within my control. I'm losing my friends one by one by all the crappy shit I keep doing. Have you ever felt like going back to do the same thing again when you have been hurt once? Putting aside all the hurt and pain that comes along with it. This is so shit. Remember I have mentioned before I would abandon this blog since time would eventually change me and it would defeat the purpose of this blog? I begun blogging here with all the good vibes that I brought along with me from high school. And now all that's left of me are shredded pieces. I'm so broken.

My friends are leaving me one by one. Tell me what should I do. And it's not like I'm in the wrong. What have done actually? Am I even in the wrong? Why are you treating me with all these coldness and everything? That I won't even dare to approach you to strike up a conversation. Why are we even having this cold war because of whatever. I don't even know what's that whatever! *all's that mentioned is not referring to anyone in tp.

I just feel like breaking down soon. Everything crashing down on me. I don't like studying, I don't like doing anything anymore. All I want to do is sleep. And eat. And do anything bad. I hate someone in ChE in particular. I hate him so much I feel like slapping him. But rather, it doesn't really matter now. Cause everything's past and over, I hope.