hmm... today has been a very sad day for me... I tried to call my ex-schoolmate out but she's not free... then because of another matter that i refuse to comment on, hit on me quite hard. Tomorrow... I'll be going to study with Mabel and Eugenia. My mid-years is just a few days from now... I don't know why I don't feel really very pressured... because that Mabel keeps on fooling around with me in class during lessons. She likes to slap me on my face and leave me embarrassed in front of my class-mates. I can't stand her... She is sometimes an irritant to me... But, in my heart, she's still the friend whom I am close with. I find that I'm very useless in-front of Mabel... she makes me feel very inferior by spitting criticisms at me all the time in class... example, when I'm doing a chemistry question, she'll put critisims through me... I'm unable to relent... she's so violent, even if I had relent, I'll be at the losing end.... I don't know what to do... I'm feeling self-pity for myself... I guess I'm going back to my old ways, being the not confidence, noobie me....

hmm... today, when I woke up in the morning, I felt like I was an old woman who was aching all over... then my eyes couldn't really open. I forced myself out of the bed and headed for the toilet where I refreshed myself. I felt like it was a bad day for me... I headed for school, and then the first few lessons, I received my A maths test paper back. Haa... I passed my logarithms test which was thought that I would fail very badly without the help of my tutors(eugenia & irene). Do u know I've been failing every A maths paper since the start of the year, fortunately with the help of the retests, I managed to pass. Arrgghh... I had better focus on the mid-yr paper instead of this... I went to Shi Jing's house to do my project today, didn't know that she stayed so deep inside punggol quite close to punggol end. I had an almost fun time there, as that stupid Mabel keep on sending me messages to her Jay Lloyd on my phone... then we were fighting here and there for my phone to see the messages... harhar.. so funny... Shortly after that, shi jing's mother offered to drive us out of her place(too far ma). We arrived at compass point, where we met lots of punggol sec students... overall, it was not a stressful day today.... haha....

hmm... no mood to update my blog... aiyo... this weekend very the not fruitful because I didn't spend my time studying but going out with my family. Don't know whether it's a good thing or a bad thing... because next week cannot go out with my parents le, got mid-yr exams... I'm going to study full intensity and concentration.. better ask if I don't know any maths or chem qns... later spend my time at home scratching my head and trying to understand the concept. Oh ya, next week need to hand up my ten year series to Mrs Gan. Her teaching ar, I find it really hard to grasp laa... she teaches very fast somemore, i want a change of chemistry teacher! Maybe I shall try taking down some notes by myself... try to help myself if she can't help me. Going to sleep soon... Gd Night!

ooo.... today I had an overall quite fruitful day. I went to kovan to study with Irene and that talkative chap, Dion. Haha... I was so happy to know that Mabel was there too, I called her to come and meet us at McDonalds after her japanese lessons at heartland mall... the moment she came, i was always filled with joy. Every morning, when I arrived in school, she sees me and I see her we would behave like long-lost friends... then smile untill like mad and walk towards her... Wahaha... so damn funny.. every morning like that... hmm... just felt like updating my blog because of that... like to talk bout mabel... Yupp... then just now she came to meet me... when she was about to leave, Irene whispered into my ear and say, " she looked like a Japanese housewife...". I was like laughing like mad till my abs hurt... oh ya.. haven't been training them... will try to tone them soon. I haven't been exercising too lately, go jogging... Action speaks louder than WORDS... ahhhh........

hieez.. bloggie... didn't update u yesterday because I was damn tired at night after coming home from bishan, yea... I met Eugenia there too... I am damn compressed up right now, my exams are just like begginning in a weeks' time. The worst thing is everytime around this period of time, I would feel really lazy, no lah... I shall be determined in things I do. I don't know whether this is called revision anot... I have began tutorial a week ago, well maybe I've began studying already without me knowing... wahaha... so this bout this guy 'danny', about him liking me is not true one la... is Jay Lloyd played a prank on me.. wat the heck... hehe... okie la... seems like I'm not in the mood to continue typing bout my life.... haha... shall update u soon...

what the hell... just now updated but the post was missing, so decided to update another. Yupz.. this few days got lots of rumours roaming about, bout this guy called 'Melvin' who likes me and all that... they asked me to stead with him and all that... got somemore 'so-called' rumours la... not bad ones la... Feeling so weak this few days because that stupid Mabel keep on fighting with me and she injured me... Ouch! I hate her la... no la... I love her more than I hate her loh... diao -.- then got this online guy Lenzy who keeps asking me out and I rejected because of.... haha... Exams round the corner... being stressed... today went to the library and then met Jay Lloyd and the gang there, then began passing paper planes and all that... the msg they sent back made me laugh my head off... haha.. okie.. shall end here.. bye

hieez... bloggie... didn't have time to update u yesterday... Well, today was a rather tiring day once again because the mid-yr is up-close, and I've to buck up. I want netball trainings! It is the only time when I can relax and train my stamina too... I miss trainings, although they're rather strenuous... Nonetheless, I have to balance up my life... between play and study. Wahaha... as I say, in my previous bloggie, that Mabel has an impt impact on me... She came up to me in school and said that to me too... so funny... can't stand it huh... she's always making me laugh endlessly, even if she just stand there and act stupid/blur, I can giggle to myself... Other people might think, " EEk... why this siao gurl giggling to herself one... insane... ". But, I'm not giggling to myself but at Mabel. Then yesterday, I met my primary sch friend at a bus-stop... She's Kam Hui Li.... yet another person whom I'll never forget in my entire life... She played a role in my primary school life when I was young which caused me to grow up to be such a girl with such a mindset. I don't wish to recall what had happened... don't bother asking me even because this will remain as a secret in my life... deep down... so... I went to call her and chatted with her... wanted to ask her out to meet and talk.. but then I realized that it was not like the past anymore, I can't really communicate with her. I miss playing with her when we were young in the primary school. It's like how Mabel and i are fooling around now after recess... really kiddy... but i still enjoyed it, because... it's fun! Haha... I also got to know this new girl whose name is Irene... she's really smart and i find her mystique too... don't know how to describe la... so tired... alright.. going to bed now... see ya!

hieya... today, I'd to do CIP hours which is to go actually centrepoint but due to error, we were asked to go to plaza singapura... I find that actually some singaporeans do have a heart, especially there was this indian man who donated once and later he saw me there at the same place, he donated a second time which was really sweet lah... he said I was doing a good deed and later said that he was willing to donate. I am trying to focus on my studies lately, however, who's willing to help me in my a maths and chemistry? I really need someone's help! Then, that Jay Lloyd keep asking me who do I like... so I lied to him I'm attached already. Somehow... I feel like getting attached, however, my studies are like a large signboard by the side of my brain shining brightly and signalling to me what is important first... next, I have this medium size board which is very colourful and bright filled with primary colours. All this make up my brain, then I have this very important part in the centre of my brain which states family centre... I have to divide my life into these 3 parts, and if one is not doing well, the rest will be adversely affected too... if I'm doing well in all 3, I feel blessed... haa.. Where to I get another space or time to squeeze in another attachment? *Sigh... Stay focused... My netball coach made this statement to us during the last training, " when u're stressed, go and jog..." And, I really believe in that.. well, maybe tomorrow morning I'll go and jog... haha...

hiezz.... bloggiez... had a pretty stressful day today. Basically, these few days have been rather down for me because of the formulas of a and e maths that i've to stuff into my brain. Also having the teachers rushing through all the chapters just to make it in time for the mid-yr exams. However, school have been rather interesting lately too, because I have Mabel that sweetie-pie who's always keeping me laughing all the way except during lessons. I love the period after Mabel and I have finished our recess and we are both making our way to our classroom. She would always spank my butt if I was to go up first then we'll fight all the way up to our classroom which is at the fourth storey. After that, sweating profusely and all messed up. However, she has been rather evil to me by saying that i'm stupid and slow to me several times this week just because she advanced me in several of the tests. It dampened my spirits and self-esteem, makes me feel like a helpless creature... Dosen't she knows that she's the most important person in school to me, whatever she's going to say will have an impact on me definitely. Just want to let people out there whom have been guiding me, a big thanks to U! I love u all! However, I'm not a perfect person although I tend to be a perfectionists. Then again, this guy ben always never fail to quite cheer me up, haa.. not actually... but i'm hearing the song that he sent me at this moment. Something really weird happened to me just now. Someone who said he was Melvin smsed me and said that he'd liked me for a long time and wants me to stead with him... Then, asked him for his email, it turned out it was Jay Lloyd's and it was Jay who was making fun of me... Such a fool of me... to actually believe what he said. Stupid JayLloyd, gonna make u embarrassed on mon... fool around with my feelings.. idiotic...

hieez... bloggie... feeling sad again... i failed my e maths test when I felt it was simple and then today there was a sudden pop quiz.. and i scored 2/10. I'm in deep shit... had better stay focused and work hard. I don't want to end up dropping my a maths. That mabel ar, she keeps on saying she wants to challenge me to this and that, although I feel that it's okie, I am pressurissed by her. Hmm, then got this guy, ben who's really weird lah. I have a feeling that all that he's talking about is implying to me. Don't say I buai ba lah... But, I feel that he shouldn't be liking me if so, because of some problems that i've and that if he knows, he cannot accept one. That is also why I want to remain single... hey ben, if ya want to know... go and ask mabel ba... just want to be frank with u... haha... but i guess u're just infatuating ba... so u'll sure get over me soon IF SO... haha

heelo... bloggie... feel so down.. u know, mabel is now nicknamed the 'Queen of 400m'... and i am the 'Princess of 400m' because she came in 1st and i 2nd. Well... the funny thing is... the later generation will ascend the throne... so next year I shall beat mabel and ascend the throne... wahaha! Siao bo... *sigh... Last week was full with tests and this week's full with projects to finish up, so busy that I'm unable to breathe. No lah, still able to sit by the computer and unleash my stress into this blog. Mabel is so damn rough man... she kicks me.. and then we'll end up in a fight, so often these days that everyone in class says we are mad... then today, i and mabel fought again... Amelia sat there and say... " Aiyo, 2 girls rape each other untill like that ar... " . I laughed my head off and prepared for lessons.... Hmm... got to know this guy, Benjamin... feel that he's not bad a guy but it says otherwise by mabel and friends... I don't know lah... Okie.. have finished updating u for today..

woo... long time haven't been updating u... have been so busy you see... Well, yesterday was my sports day and I took part in 400 m and 4 by 100m relay. However, my main focus was 400m, maybe because Mabel was taking part in it too. I was quite determined to beat her, however, sadly, I lost to her by a few metres. I came in 2nd, sad case, don't wish to reminscise it again. It's painfully a regretfully event, haha.. kidding, since i've lost to her, I've to work harder for next year's event. As it is said, greater success comes after failure. So Mabel, see ya on the track next year... Hee hee... however, I sort of also don't feel sad that i lost to Mabel... i don't know why, maybe because we both have been fighting in school so often that I feel the least regret that I lost to her... That's because i love her as a great friend to me. Haha... didn't guess I would say such a thing... wahaha... siao.. okie... maybe losing to Mabel has burnt my brain... okieee... see ya.. shall update u soon...