EXASPERATION!! I got tricked by this stupid email sent by an old friend of mine. I actually typed in the guy whom I really liked in this stupid webpage! this is the darn website, http://www.secret-loves.com/index.php?test=654150. Please do not ever access this page and be tricked just like me!


`i won't ever talk to you i guess.

YAY!!! my dragon boat team WON! we came in first, we're the champ! Today was the last day of the orientation and yet it was the most memorable one of my life.


Firstly, we began with the telematch at the sports complex in tp. Applied sci school came in champ as we scored a total of 100 points. Thereafter, we had to rush to bedok resevoir for the the dragon boat competition and ME myself had really wanted to pee somewhere at that point of time to calm my nerves down. hahah. Everything went briskly and finished off with a blink of my eye. I can still recollect the painful aches I had right after everything. My back ached so badly that I had to squat down to lessen the pressure on my back.


STUPID BLISTERS! School is starting next monday! Even though I'm looking forward to lessons in tp, somewhere else in me tells me that a large workload awaits me. It's not the end of the fun because in such a place as tp, you can't get enough of the fun with so many facilities. And making friends!!!

I'M SO SO BLOODY tired! I had to dry my hair so I decided to blog about today's happenings. It was basically an outrageously fun day. hahah, especially the campfire part. hees. I decided to head home instead of staying overnight there because of some personal reasons. (:


went to school early at around 12.30 pm to make it for dragon boat trials, or rather training at 1.30 pm. We were diverted to bedok reservoir and the so-called coach gave us a brief explanation of everything. Soon, we were on the boat! I was seated at the back of the boat la, so the in front people kept splashing all the reservoir water behind. I was totally wet after that. We were under the sun and in the waters for about close to two hours. I got a sun burn. Oh ya. It was so damn tiring especially when one had to use arm strength to row the boat forward. I've got a few blisters in exchange for the fun. hees.


I CAN'T WAIT FOR FRIDAY! I MISS PIXIE AND MY CLASS!

gosh. i'm so beat now. had applied sci school orientation today. it's going to go on for another 3 days. BUT, anyway it's fun. hahah. There were many guys in my class. 4 girls and 15 plus other guys in the class. COOL. hahah. The sad thing was I didn't got into the same class as debbie and jonas. ): urgh.


hahah. gosh. There was this really cute guy in my class called pixie. hahah. His hair's cute somehow. okay. I've got to head off. I'm so going to die soon. Yay. Dragonboat trials for me tomorrow! sun, sun, sun, water, water, water!

School's beginning!!! I'm so excited about it. heh. But I so hate going for the stupid orientations. I hate socialising some how. I prefer to linger around a few people who are close to me and then we'll enjoy our company. hms. HOWEVER, it's good to make more friends isn't it? URGH. I'm so beat and dog-tired that I can drop dead on my bed now. right at this very moment.

BORING day. I read close to half of a book today. I practically led a maid's all-in-a-day work today, woke up in the morning only to mop the floor and then I had a simple lunch which was my breakfast. And then I spent half the day at the television, thereafter it was BED time! So here am I awake and have nothing at hands to do.


EERIE. watched a documentary about 'spirits talk' in channel 11 of scv. It discussed about whether there was life after death. Then there was this woman whose husband left her because of an illness and she tried ways and means to connect to the spiritual world as a means to know how her husband's doing there. But everything was to no valid. Another example was this man who was strucked by an illness too and was filmed before his death. The whole film saw this man to his grave. It was eerie. hms. I wonder what lies after death?


EXCITED! school's starting and fun's in too! hhaha. I can't wait for school to start! It's so boring to stay at home all day and to hang out some days. At least with school, I get to have a scheduled lifestyle(which is constructive) and also participate in ccas! Perhaps if there was wakeboarding in tp, I might consider taking it up as my cca. (: tee hee.

tired!!! I went back to punggol sec to visit my juniors and at the same time train them as well. I guessed I didn't really did a good job huh. I played court game with them for about half an hour and it was slightly raining I think. Gosh. My stamina sucks big time now. I can't even sustain a half an hour half court game! URGH. hms. Perhaps the reason for my extreme exhaustion is because I'm having the thing of the month now. hahah. My head's heavy now. I've got to get some sleep soon. I'll be sleeping early then. (:


i'm still wondering when the police would arrest those two delinquents. I can't wait a day longer not seeing justice brought to light. BUT, can justice be brought to light always? the answer is NO. Sometimes, these ruffians just get away scott free. And I hate it. just pray that you're lucky if you don't get caught. URGH.

I settled my ez-link card verifications at the ticket office in compass today. I was there with debbie, ame, ter and xy. It was rather repetitive. I go out with the same crowd and we do the same things everytime. hms. I wonder how my new phase of life will take place? Will I immediately get a boyfriend? hahah. Sounds stupid but I'd rather focus on my studies and later pursue my dream after 3 years in temasek poly. heh. Life can be full of joy and commitment when you know what you want out of it.


Oh ya. I got another ear hole now. A second one on my right ear. To say the truth, it really doesn't hurt a little at all, I wonder why debbie is hesitating so much to a pair of ear holes. hahah. I hope school starts quickly! Staying at home has made me put on pounds! Netball trainings here I come!!!


`you don't even know your heart is with whom.

It was a movie day today, had an outing with debbie, terence and jonas at vivocity. We watched 'Because I Said So'. It was super hilarious when the old woman and her mate made out. hahaha. They both looked so desperate and deprived. Overall, it was a relatively good movie.

I don't understand some things. Even though everything has been settled today and that I hope the boys get caught very soon, my heart still feels heavy. I don't understand why everytime when something untoward happens to the person very close to my heart, I can't help blaming myself for it. There were so many what ifs lurking inside my mind the whole of last night that I could not really sleep. What if I had been there by my mother's side when the crime took place? The boys would have thought twice about snatching her bag and causing her so much distress because I was definitely bigger size than them according to what my mum described. I would have definitely put up a fight with them irregardless of what. Those two bastards. I'm so fuming now. freaking shit. It's so hurting to picture what my mum had to go through last night. urgh. I'm running a headache now. I hope the cops are able to arrest them and let me bash them up until their face features are distorted.



Even though everything is rather back to normal now, my family are still suffering from post-theft shock. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. urgh. my poor family. ):

DAMN IT! Today's the worse day of my life!!! freaking shit. One problems after another. And through this, I'm telling you I hate ma*ays! There was a crime which took place at BLOCK 291A, COMPASSVALE STREET today. Two young boys about the age of 14-17, race: obvious, grabbed a woman's handbag and dashed off quickly. One was quite plump and the other was fair-skinned, both were malays. Whoever you two boys are, I'll bet you two will get your just desserts for causing distress to my family and loved ones. You two bastards! I hope karma would envelop you and take you away! So if you know, the woman was my mum.

This morning was a disastrous one. My mum told me last night that the construction workers would be doing their painting job this morning and that she'd wanted all her clothes in the kitchen in. And yet, she left one bamboo of clothes hanging with our undergarments out there! SO this was how it goes.


I woke up rather late this morning since I slept real late last night because of bai lin again. I was shaken up by the din made in the kitchen, so, I walked slowly to the kitchen and I looked out of the window. To my horror, the bamboo was hanging midway in the air while its other end is struggling to save itself from its horrible ending. The ropes which helped to carry the men up the levels kept moving and eventually, the bamboo dropped down even though I tried to reach for it by the window and nearly dropped out. It was so frightening for me. After giving my dad a call, he asked me to head down to collect our stuff. And it was sheer stupidity because when I was downstairs trying to look for my things, the workers were up there trying to put stuff back into the house through the window! Even though they returned our things in one piece, I can't imagine the disgust of letting them touch our undergarments! YUCK! eee. My dad called the office in charge to lodge a complaint and eventually, what we got in return was 5 bamboos. hahah. All in return for my scare!


Alright, i've got to go out soon. Update you again tonight.

today had many ups and downs. I cried in the evening after I felt like I had been treated unfairly. Unappreciated. The guilty ones called and messaged me to head down to vivo to shop with them and enjoy our family time there. I hesitantly obliged them and I put on my jeans and some clothes, the next thing I knew I was on the train to habourfront.

when I arrived there, the first thing I had to do was to eat at the food court with my parents. My siblings weren't there, only my parents were. Well, this is not a very bad thing. The plus points are I get my food and drinks paid for. Soon, my siblings came and they ate really slowly as I watched them as I'd nothing better to do. My eyes hurt after some crying.

my sisters took me to shop around since I wasn't in the best of moods. They took me to ZARA and we spotted a dirt cheap pair of jeans for 34.90! I'd to get it, since it was not a want but a need. I needed tons of jeans for poly schooling. I was at the cashier and was about to pay by nets when my dad came around and HE said I will pay. At that very point of time, I was touched you can say. However, I wondered whether it was delibrate. hahah. Nah. My dad isn't that sort. Heh.

My mood uplifted thereafter. hahah. I held my Mum's hand as we walked through the mall. haha. I'm a wife snatcher. hahah. Through this all, I came to realized that I indeed love my family alot. hahah. It's not because my dad paid for my clothes okay! hahah.

i'm pissed off by my faggot younger sibling. She's a hard nut to crack sometimes and I feel like slapping her occassionally to send a message across her brain. What seemed like a mere issue turned out to be a hazardous accident. Okay. This was how it went.


I was taking account of the things I had been purchasing without second thoughts in a little handbook of mine. I needed a pencil to draw some lines and when I realized that they were with my younger sibling, I got a little fed up and headed to her pencil case which was opened and sliding with pens. I took my pencil and in the meantime found some markers could come in handy so I took them first without asking her. I scurried to finish up my accounts when my sister came into the room to take some stuff and realized that I was using her 'precious little markers'. This was what she said.


'Why did you used my markers without my permission???!!!' screaming at the top of her voice.


"You also used my mechanical pencil without my permission what," I said.


"I got ask you for your permission okay," she bellowed.


I said, "My foot okay"


Then she continued. "Do you know how much my markers cost in comparison with your mechanical pencil??!"


At this point of time, I was booming with anger and at the same time contenting my hurt with her words. We cursed each other with vulgarities thereafter.


I meant what's up with the borrowing of some stupid markers that aren't as great as they can be used? It's stupid of her to argue with me because of this thing. It's not like she always ask for permission when she uses my stuff or my elder sister's. And to come to think of it, she DIDN'T asked for my permission to use my bag this afternoon while I was asleep! She could have left a note of something. Talking about asking permission! If you yourself aren't able to perform something that you request of others to do, PLEASE do not request of others to do the same thing for you! I know I was in the wrong too. Thus, I kept rather quiet after that.

But what's up with the loud yelling? It blasted my ear drums! Crap. I hate loud people sometimes.

well, at least I had been happy the whole day today. I went out to do a little shopping with my elder sister, bought something else again. hahah. And I'm rather pleased with myself. heh.


i have been crazy about black roses lately. If supposingly someone came up to me and passed me a black rose, I'd be extremely happy. hahah. I'm obsessed with it.


went to the national eye centre to check my eyes today. Doc says there's nothing serious with my eyes and he prescribed more drops for me. Hopefully, these drops would prove useful.


URGH. i'm suffering from gastrics now. It hurts so badly that i don't think I can sleep tonight. Thankfully, I drank some milk a while ago or else I'd have fainted then. (; sharks.


`i found a new goal today. (;

I'm feeling wayward melancholic once in every blue moon nowadays.


`d*gusting person. you don't deserve such a girl. be mindful of yourself. pui.


(; don't worry, my friends. the above mentioned person is not any of you. hahaa.

I'm back with a twisted finger and tired body! I headed back to punggol secondary for my junior's netball training this afternoon. I guessed I haven't been honing my skills therefore my poor performance at netball all this while. I wonder where would I stand in tp's netball team. URGH. I'd rather not bother myself with such mediocre problems now. It makes me sick.


Training at punggol sec brought back some fine memories. My stupid sense of humour with the juniors and many others. However, there were some bad ones too. My self-reliance on my team-mates would never be able to push myself to the limits to achieve what I want from netball. Perhaps this is a new beginning for me. hahah. How stupid. This is a new beginning for me. OUCH. my poor finger.


URGH. Here it comes again. I just told myself not to ponder over mediocre things and yet and I have a strong feeling to say this. I keep wondering whether it's right to keep mum about my likes to someone whom I think isn't worth my effort to like. It's not like he's the best of the guys but yet he makes me laugh and feel happy when I'm talking to him. He's frivolous and everything you think you don't want a guy to be yet I'm falling head over heels for him. Isn't this stupid? I think it's a bad taste bud of mine somehow. This is not a confession, to person concerned.


`i think i fall in love too easily. & i hate it. be tolerant.

URGH. I'm so sleepy and tired. I was kept up by stupid bai lin last night again. Chicken boy. I'm going to collect my medical report at interanational plaza later! Then I'll head to temasek poly to hand up! I'm so pissed off man.


`my future is bleak you see.