Hi there... once again. So scared of tomorrow... tomorrow may be the only opportunity to pursue my dream. I guess God knows I'm a indecisive girl, thus, he laid an opportunity right in front of me to grab it. I don't know how I will fare in tomorrow's selection, however, i noticed something. Some of the 4 chosen dosen't seem really bothered by tomorrow's event. I am so afraid the people in-charge of the selection, would take me away from Pei Wen and the rest. Ms Lim, how I wish you were there to aid us. But, you can't possibly run here and there and see to us. You are such a mummy to us if you really did that. However, you are always my mummy/ sister*, hehe. I am dead meat.. I know how to go there...but don't know how to come back... Maybe ask my dad to come and drive me.

Hi there... I have a piece of good news here. I've won the Chinese Handwriting Contest in first place for Secondary 2 level. Actually, I knew about it long ago... I was informed by Ms Zhang Lian. However, i'm sad that many have said that my handwritten piece that is on the board is not very nice among the other 2 pieces. Some even said that the teacher that had marked my piece had stamp pasted on her eyes. Forget about it! I don't care about what others think but only what i think and what god thinks of me. Recently, I have seen my netball coach, Ms Lim to be upset and she seems to be bothered by something. I can't help it and be concerned. She doesn't seems to be concerned about matters in netball, maybe because she is very busy. I don't blame her for that, however, she isn't very close to us, the Sec. 2 girls, anymore. I'm so sad... can't forget how happy we spent our time together last year, especially during the netball camp. It's very saddening but I know everything that we have will leave us one day. There's nothing I can do about it.

Aww... I'm growing fatter. I have been eating like a pig, the past few days. Guess what? I've gain weight, aww!!! Terrible!!! However, I feel happier eating like a pig, haha. I had better control my diet, later grow very fat. I'm having my English common test tomorrow... so scared! Ms Farah said that it is not going to be an easy one for us. Yeah! Tomorrow, we have PE and netball, time for me to lose some weight to get back onto track. Tomorrow, if Ms Lim is going to make us run 2.4 km around the school with time limit, I'm going to be dead meat! I have to meet the time limit of 10 mins! Faint.... Ok, see ya!

Hmm... today I have spent my time usefully. Debbie came to my house to do the project, we had a fun time playing and doing the project. Debbie read the message I wrote for her in a blog and gave me a surprised look, I was embarassed. After all, today was quite a pleasant day to me... My parents went out to OG and shop, they bought home many stuff. Yeah! Tomorrow is Cherine's birthday party, and my parents allowed me to stay there till 7 pm!, which was never allowed by them. We are going to play water bomb... woo hoo! 1 thing is... I have had a hard time getting her a present. Thinking about Chocolate, I sms him yesterday night and asked him about his relationship with Mei Xuan. He replied and said, " just friends loh ". I don't know why I am relieved, as I know even he dosen't have a girlfriend, I will not start a relationship with him. Alright... stop here for now..

Today, I have got stuff to keep myself busy. In the afternoon, I am meeting Debbie to do my ProjectWork. Same old thing, Wei Lin and Tiffany can't make it, Tiffany can only make it at 5 pm, so late. I dislike my father, he always see my little sister supreme to me. Nowadays, I get an award or good results in school, my father won't seems to care already, he'll just sign it and return it to me. Supposing its my little sister who have got it, he will definitely praise and praise non-stop. I am always asked to do the house chores, my elder sister or younger sister do them less frequent than me. I don't know what to say....

I am so sad... today isn't a splendid day for me. I didn't enjoyed the day. Worse still, my 2nd mummy has fall sick, she has a bad sore throat. I hope she gets well soon. These few days, my emotions are starting to take over. I have a doubt. Recently, everybody seems to see Chocolate and my best friend or team-mate, Mei Xuan together. Everyone is asking me what is my opinion. I guess they have went into a relationship. I don't know what to say... These few days, I keep getting to see Chun Siang more often and often, my feelings for him starts building up again. I don't know why I feel like seeing him in front of me right now. Everyone thinks I have no feelings for him already, but, the fact is, I can't control my heart. I don't know what is my place in his heart, maybe, it's not even there. I don't know why I am feeling like this right now, I am expressing myself now as I can't express my feelings verbally.I am concern for Mei Xuan as she has changed alot after the 1-week holiday, she is no longer the bubbly and cheerful girl I knew. I think it has something to do with boy-girl relationship stuff. Alright... I shall write till here..

Yipee! It's Saturday. Hehe, I just vacuum my house floor this morning, so tired, but my house has sparkling floor now. This saturday is not exciting at all, but i might say it is meant for me to rest physically and not mentally. I have to study for several upcoming common test next week. Having common test is now very common in my life right now. I am feeling blue right now at this moment. How I wish someone I liked for a very long time would appear right in front of me right now... so bored. I want to play netball now... or maybe play basketball with Chocolate or even new crush, Melvin. Arh... I don't want to get myself involved in relationships. My studies, Netball and friends comes first. Alright, my hand is still aching from the gym works yesterday, See Ya!

Today, I'm quite satisfied with myself. I have had netball training today, as it was raining, we proceeded to the gym. We, the netballers, done 3 sets of gym works and 20 for each. After the 2nd set, it was half and hour towards 4 pm, I thought Ms Kang was going to release us, but, she didn't. I have been doing all the gym works consistently without slacking and after the 2nd set, I was very exhausted and wore out. I forced myself to do the 3rd set, and managed to finished everything without slacking. I am very satisfied for what I have done today. Hehe... I got to know more about my junior, called Amanda. She reminds me of Tiffany, my humourous pal in class, I feel like laughing when I see her. What a cute junior I have! One more thing, Amanda, Xiu Ling and Petunia have very positive attitude. I'm sure they will be good netballers however, they may tend to slack if no one is to watch them. I have noticed Pei Wen, a junior of mine, she is pretty cold to me, most probably, she don't know me yet. There's 1 thing one should have in life, a positive attitude and a 'never say die' personality. Here's an advice to you all... when you don't feel like doing something or a task, find the passion to do it, find out why should do it, who you are doing it for, and what values you learnt from it. Egs. playing netball, I learnt that it isn't just game but it consists of teamwork and your hardwork. Another example, you vacuum the floor, what you gained: you kept the house floor clean. Hehe... so lame. Arh... so tired. My muscles are aching, alright, shall stop here..

Yoz... I'm here again. This time, I'm quite relax. I have finished most of my projects with the help of my pals in class. Today, I went to Debbie's house to do the project work. On the way there, I felt that I couldn't communicate with her. It's a kind of feeling, don't know how to explain it. It's all because she and I do not sit together in class and I seldom spend my time with her. We arrived at her house, and started on our project. As we do our project, we chat and talked more often and often, soon, we were chatting away. I learned something from this event. It is, every human being has feelings, they shouldn't be neglected and should be nurtured to be kept intact. I learned to cherished close ones as they may not be with us forever. This is a message to Debbie, my best pal: Debbie, thanks for helping me and aiding me in things I do, I am sorry for neglecting you in the past and I hope we shall be friends forever. Thanks alot! Another message for Wei Lin: Wei Lin, you are a great help to me. You helped me in my mathematics when I don't understand them and you aid me in my mother tongue too. Thanks alot! I really appreciate both of your help, but, I don't know how to express my thanks. OK, hope we shall stay as pals forever... Bye!