I am back to update my blog due to popular demand. Haa. Hms. Life have been drifting like it is nobody's business. Time pass as swift as the bullet train that it just seems I do not have sufficient time in whatever I am doing. I am so afraid yet I am still so complacent. I feel like a failure sometimes. I can not conclude where my self-determination and self-discipline have gone to. It just feels like I have changed alot as a person on a whole. I am no longer the charlene that I used to be. I stagger with the ever-changing lifestyle. Sigh.
I am going to be so busy tomorrow. Firstly, there will be a short training for the netball marathon this weekend. Thereafter, we have to collect our tees from the Joo Seng Warehouse. I am so excited about it manz. I love the tee tons and tons. Then, I will have to rush home to clean up and get changed to head out for elaine's birthday party in the evening. We have to get her birthday present too- Mei xuan and I. Haa. Sigh. It is going to be so tiring after all that. By the way, I am really broke already. I still have to get my contact lens replenished as soon as possible. Therefore, my dear friends, don't ask me out so often for lunch and stuffs k. I am saving up $$$. Ha. I have got to sleep early. I hope time can be on my side tomorrow. Perhaps I can get back from the warehouse by 2 or 3 pm? Haa. I hope so. Alrights. Nights, people!

I am back to blog again. I feel so lost in this world. I am confused as to what I really want and who I really love. As these things are revolving around my life, I feel that I am losing my mom. Or rather, my mom is losing me. I feel that my mom do not understand me as much as she did in the past. I guessed I have pampered her too much in the past. I used to get every single thing for her and listened to her every bid and call. It has become an extent that she is asking me to pick up a phone which is like barely a metre's reach of her? I feel so irritated whenever she expects me to accomplish such a minima task for her. I feel so guilty for feeling that way towards my mom yet I know deep down I really loved my mom to an extent I would do anything for her. There is such a bonding between me and her that is undescribable.
Sigh ... I think I really love somebody alot even though we have not met. I think I am going bonkers. I am insane. Nonctural darkness as I wait.