I saw him today again! I really really want to get to know him better. But it's so hard sometimes when we seldom get to see each other. ): I misssssssss him! Or do I only want to own him? haha. I have no idea. I pray that he keeps a place for me in his heart. I would be so heartbroken if he really has someone he likes already but oh well, I can't control matters of the heart.

Hahaha. I'm going to include ang xuan yi in my post for today. hahaha. This little shit (haha) has brightened up my life over the past few months. She's always making me laugh like shit and crazily over the things she does. First, it started with the Kuan Yin Biscuits at the library then ... it continued until now. hahahah. Haiya. She has alot of crap to entertain you about, not to mention that she's rather intelligent as well! hahaha. Okay, please continue staying in my life to entertain me ah! hahaha. You would replace dearest Michelle who lied to me about cutting her hair which broke my fragile heart! hahaha!

Oh ya, to think that everytime I think of what I shared with Michelle, I would curl up in a little ball somewhere and cry you know! (Ya, like I'm a little cat!). hahaha. (You wish!) hahaha. Oh no. I think I have gone crazy blogging since I started mentioning about crazy xuan yi! hahahah!

Cheerios. I am going to love all those who love me. (: i am going to change.

Would you rather have a complicated but exciting life OR a mundane and carefree life? I am lost between the options. Anyway, I just live life as it is. Taking each day and step one by one. Some people plan ahead but never live to fulfill their wishes. However, there are some who never plan and live life aimlessly. It's weird how life works huh.

I miss talking to Michelle on the phone. I miss her clicking tongue. I miss her voice. I miss her stupid but funny English-accented mandarin. But things aren't the way they are anymore. I don't know why, but I guess she's changed. We were never at the same platform in the first place. I guess she would have never guessed how much I miss her huh. I shared alot of secrets with her. It's alright, people change and I just got to adapt to it. (: I have accepted it.

Why do people change when they get attached? Does falling in love make them lose their senses? I really can't understand. Oh well, got to wait till it's my turn to fall head over heels for the guy I like then. Then I'll know the difference and seek understanding. Oh wells. I am currently having a big-time crush on this guy who's really cute! I guess he's got a sweetheart though. ): but I hope he stays happy. (:

I am so stressed out with the on-going projects and due assignments! I can't stand it, I have a project presentation tomorrow and I have not done the powerpoint slides yet. Ugh. Projects sucks. Oh well, just got to keep staying strong.

I had netball training yesterday morning. Training was fun yet quite demanding? Court game was excellent, I felt satisfied since a very long time during the first few quarters of the game. However, last quarter was a bit awkward for me though. It's hard to describe and contemplate when my emotions do act up. I don't really even know myself. To sum it all, it was a rather good day yesterday. haha. Other than spraining my ankle, that is. I have two sprained ankles now, both of which are still giving me problems when I play on court.

Alright, got to finish up darn projects now. Life's giving me its ups and downs! I hate the downs just like the bloody roller coaster. (:

I don't know why I like to laugh. And I am going to start this post by laughing to myself. I think I am insane. I laugh when I'm happy; I laugh when I'm sad and I can laugh when I see the world collapsing slowly in front of me too. It's as if nobody cares, at least I can't feel that anybody is.

I needed some space by myself to organize my thoughts and feelings so I created another blog personally to pen down my upsetting story. I haven't been updating over here though.

Sometimes I think I am strong enough to manage by myself but very often I fail at it terribly. Externally, I don't want people to care but deep down I yearn for affection and attention. I guess I have been brought up this way and I can't really change now. I hate being sensitive.

Every night, I pray for God to lend me his listening ear and guidance because I fear crying when I go to bed. I need a pair of listening ears. Perhaps there was one and I really enjoyed talking to her too much and you could guess the ending. I felt that it was pathetic even though we are still friends currently.

Sigh. I helped Mabel with her filming today at a tanah merah flat. I don't know why but I felt that the flat was kind of eerie. But anyway, made a few acquaintances with Mabel's friend. (: they were quite nice.

It's prayer session now. (: haha.