The past three days has been poignant. It's a new sort of thing. I'm learning to handle everything, from being in the same class with him to seeing people whom I haven't seen for ages. It's quite tedious sometimes, but I hope I am tenacious enough to see through it all.

Once again, today I found the importance of having friends again. Good friends. Friends whom I always turn to when I don't see light in my problem. Friends who would lend their listening ear when convenient. But of course I don't take any of my other good friends for granted, it's just that I prefer to be alone listening to music than thrashing all my feelings out to people in the open. And so I prefer to tolerate all the 'thrashing' inside me.

My eyes hurt so much now. The bloody contact lenses are sucking my bloodshot eyes dry. I need some eye rest now. Immediately.

Sometimes, it's hard to find chemistry or a certain type of chemistry in people. Thus if I happen to come across one, even if it's the same sex, she tends to catch of my attention. I don't know what's with this random subject anyway, I just happened to be thinking of someone which fits this description. hahahaha.

Baby, give me more faith and hope. I really hope we'll be able to last. Ours is a relationship of a thousand possibilities or more, I won't give up on you. I love you sweet pie.

You're Not Sorry

by Taylor Swift

All this time I was wasting

Hoping you would come around

I've been giving out chances every time

And all you do is let me down

-

And it's taking me this long

Baby but I figured you out

And you're thinking we'll be fine again

But not this time around

-

You don't have to call anymore

I won't pick up the phone

This is the last straw

Don't wanna hurt anymore

-

And you can say that you're sorry

But I don't believe you baby

Like I did before

You're not sorry, no, no, no, no

-

Looking so innocent

I might believe you if I didn't know

Could've loved you all my life

If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold

-

And you got your share of secrets

And I'm tired of being last to know

And now you're asking me to listen

Cause it's worked each time before

-

But you don't have to call anymore

I won't pick up the phone

This is the last straw

Don't wanna hurt anymore

-

And you can tell me that you're sorry

But I don't believe you baby

Like I did before

You're not sorry, no, no, oh

You're not sorry, no, no, oh

-

You had me falling for you honey

And it never would've gone away, no

You used to shine so bright

But I watched all of it fade

-

So you don't have to call anymore

I won't pick up the phone

This is the last straw

There's nothing left to beg for

-

And you can tell me that you're sorry

But I don't believe you baby

Like I did before

You're not sorry, no, no, oh

You're not sorry, no, no, oh

No, oh, no, oh, no oh

Whoa, no, no

-the end-

Gosh. Major project's over and done with! :D I'm quite worried though, my LO couldn't quite understand my poster presentation yesterday. :/ well, I hope he does see light through reading my report. Anyway, the lyrics I posted above is non-suggestive of any whatsoever thing.

I'm feeling really melancholic now though. I wonder why do I get this feeling every now and then, it's like an attack or something. It's been like this ever since I was a teenager, I always needed this space to myself. I always needed time to be alone. Well, I guess some people do experience this every now and then.

Anyway, it was Coral's birthday about two days back. I had wanted to address her as Ms Coral Lim here but I figured that it's weird because I feel so grown up and all already. Haha. I really hope you had a wonderful birthday, coral. You'll always be someone I respect and look up to, since young until now.

Hahaha. And ya! I watched coraline on thursday too! In 3D! It's a nice movie, I would rate it 4/5? It's a whole new movie experience for cartoon animations from the usual nemo and mouse movies. hahahaha. Anyway, I want to go watch some teevee. Shall end today. :)

Fly birdie fly...

Fly birdie fly...

Fly birdie fly. Up up to the sky!

Sha la la la la la la Sha la la la la~

Toot .. toot .. toot (flute blowing~) toot .. toot.. toot.. toot.. toot.. toot..

(I'm consumed by boredom, you see.) :D

i don't want to be selfish this time round.

Met up with a friend today. And then he was telling me alot of things which made sense, and I pondered upon them.

If you have claimed today that you love someone,

Would you leave that person when he/she were facing obstacles?

Would you wanna help solve the problem with him/her?

And if you really thought you have loved him/her, think again.

Cause love is timeless.

Love does not fade with time.

But feelings, crushes and appeal all fade with time.

So do you really think you love him/her?

Cause when you finally leave him/her, the answer is quite obvious.

I don't know why but I have been pondering the entire day, while I was crossing the road, eating my meals and relieving myself in the restrooms. My friend told me so much. He told me that he learnt so much from his recent breakup, he told me not to make promises cause promises are meant to be broken. And everything is unpredictable.

If you're someone selfish today and you love only yourself, I suggest you should not get attached and lead your life of loneliness. When will you learn? Cause if you don't learn, the same shit happens. And I shall stop preaching for today. :)

Time is passing so quickly. I can't handle all that, I don't wanna grow up. I wanna be like peter pan. Oh yeah. I participated in a street netball competition on sunday at west coast park and we won third place! I feel my team and I growing better with each different exposure at every comp. It's always heartwarming to be playing with familiar team-mates when you've grown up with them, suffered with them during trainings in the past, and they know you inside out. It's so comfortable. And you don't get this sort of feeling with everyone.

Major project report and poster due date SOON! chiong chiong chiong~!