Dear bloggie. I am mad at myself. I am mad for not being self-disciplined, and also not knowing my limits. I did my chemistry test 3 today. I failed or rather flunked the paper real badly that I felt that I am as good as nothing. I spent time reading through the topics last night and I yielded such results. Some of my friends did not even mugged for the paper and they scored distinctively better than me. I feel that I am such a disgrace to mrs gan and everybody. Am I a person who produce such results? I am a person who seeks for excellence. The paper today hit me real badly that I felt as if the world had given up on me. My chemistry paper is less than 2 weeks away and I am still sitting within the reach of complacency. I tell myself to stay positive and look on the bright side as I continue to work towards my goals.

Hellos blog~ I have been really distracted lately. I have been trying to steer back onto path. It has been rather difficult to do so. I have been coming online lately to chat with people when I do not even have sufficient time to study. WHAT THE HELL I AM DOING? I must question myself! The mid-year papers are half-way in my hands already, just what am I doing? I need to get my priorities right. I am like a rabbit being swollened by a snake hungrily. And this rabbit is trying tirelessly to free itself from the snake. Sigh. What are desires? Why do desires exist in this world? I leave this question to be answered by no one other than myself. I need to finish up my geog revision now. See ya.

Hellos bloggie. Yesterday I won two trophies at the sports meet. The feeling of receiving the trophy was exceptionally nice. Haa. But oh wells, it is over. I have to focus on my studies now. Furthermore, my overall target for this year is still nonetheless studies. I lost my focus last year. Sigh. I must stay focus this year. I don't want to have to go through all that hurt and disappointment I went through last year. Sad to say, I have been rather distracted from my work lately. I have to shun this distraction away. Less than 2 more weeks to my A maths paper. It is going to be the most challenging task I have so far faced. I need to revise my weak topics and target them now. I am going to work hard. I do not want to fail myself again. I will do it and can do it!

Bloggie. Sometimes I wonder why is there life in this world. Why do we live to compete and overcome one obstacle after another. I find that it is so strenuous to keep doing it though I have only been doing it for 15 years of my entire life. I will be competing in the 400 m, 200 m and 4 by 100 m race tomorrow. I hope I will wear myself out. I want to give my 100% in every race though I know it is going to be exhausting. I must learn from my mistakes and never commit them again. Stay focused. Stay on my lane and etc. Give me strength and courage!

Hellos. Apologies. I have not been updating recently. Haas. I have been busy. Hees. Yup. Mid-year exams are approaching ... I don't know how many times I have to emphasis this term. Frankly speaking, I am still not really prepared. I have channelling all my energy and focus to A maths and E maths. I also need to focus on Physics, been really weak at that. Sighs. Buck up, buck up! Urgh. I feel so bloated now. I just had my dinner. Ha. Darn it. This Saturday is my school's annual sports day. I am running three events. It is so stressful. I keep telling myself that I can do it and will do it however, you see, there is also the black side of things. Ya. I am really frustrated with myself when there is a compeitition I have to face. I will keep having these recollections of how I will be running. I will picture both sides, win or lose. Sigh. I will be logging off soon. I have to stay focused on my schedule.

Hellos people! Time passes really fast. In two weeks time, I will be sitting for my mid-year examinations. It's real terrifying but I am mugging real hard for it. Except for today. Ha. I am preparing to go out soon to celebrate Cherine's birthday. I have a line of tasks to complete tonight after the celebrations. I need to mug real hard for my chemistry and e maths tests which are coming up. There are so many things to do yet so little time. It seems like I need better, tighter time management! Ah ... ha. A little laughter will do no harm. Ha. See ya! *busy

Hello! I am back to my normal self! Hees. I am very grateful to Ms Lim's advice and myself. I have been brooding over the incident lately. And I have decided to move on. The world will not stop for me. I can cry all I want but I will move on and stay focused. Yay! I feel much weightless. Hees. I realized what I have been doing were just pure sms flirting, I did not even question myself whether it was love or whatever. And it ended up that I did not like him as much as I thought I did. It was just 'hallucination'. I took a much shorter time to forget him than little Eric. Anyways. I have a confession to make here. I am really sorry to you, Eric. You cherished me yet I chose the wrong choice which I now think I was not in the right mind at that time. He and me are not meant to be and we will never be. I am apologetic for not cherishing you. Whatever it is, I am directing all my energy towards my studies. And when I have collected my results with dazzling numbers, I will not forget you for being so patient with me in the past. Through this, I have seen who is the good and bad.
'Ctrl. Alt & Delete Mario' forever from my life.