I need a change. I got empowered by this song - agnes, release me.

Sometimes, I tell myself to be contented with my lot. Then somewhere around my superficial self comes telling me that 'you need more'. It just gets so frustrating.

`get a hole and burrow yourself in, charlene.

I'm all crumbled up, been curling up in bed the entire afternoon. I found a new identity a while ago. This raw feeling is quite queer but empowering.

They say,

If you truly love someone, you will be strong for them when you're really falling apart.

That you shouldn't have to prove you love someone.

That it's more of a trust and communication thing.

That love isn't about doing great deeds.

It's about being open, reliable, honest, talking and sharing.

I'm sorry baby. I'm sorry for all the insecurities and unreasonable antics and everything. You are everything to me baby. I don't know how am I going to redeem myself this time.

I don't wanna be like this. I needa grow up.

I feel an urge to do so much this term break. I have got so much inner energy to expend out, so much to let loose. I want to do some travelling around exotic places, do some action to get my adrenaline pumping. Life's too short to spend it hesitating. What if I died tomorrow?

Dinner at the glass house fish & co was quite awesome. I had some cheese stuffed fish and chips which was really tasty at first but it got a little too much for me when I had more than three quarters of it. I got sicked of it. haha. I spend 2/5 of my allowance for the week today. I have four more effing days to survive. Aw.

Term test's over. Oh boy, I'm so glad but I'm so going to scream when I have the papers back two weeks from now. Ugh. I can actually start screaming now you know~

Debbie's away from me. :( she's away in korea, seoul now. I have no idea why do I think of her when I couldn't be bothered when she was in sg. I scraped through the term test papers thanks to her. I was so bloody lost after I crashed the first two papers, thank god she was there to tell me some really positive stuff. I love you debbie! :D

I have been having a rather hard time with my own life. This is my last sem and I'm about to graduate soon. My dad's been drilling some facts about what I really want to do after I graduate. He forbades me to do what I want to do. But then again, I would ask myself if that's what I really want for myself. I feel like running away sometimes. It's so awfully scarrrrryy.

I think I'm really crazy, been thinking and fantasizing about so many things. Have you ever entered a mall and walk past really mysterious and sexy people? I mean really mysterious people, like they possess this aura which you don't get with other people. And this is what we chinese people call as 'seh'. Haha.

I'm going to go read a book now, been coughing like nuts since I don't know when. I might just die from an asthma attack or something. Grrr..

There's so much pain where relationships are concerned.
The pain is overbearing,
I thought physical pain were better.

What is happening to me.
Why am I imposing my principles and likings on him?
Everybody is different, I know.
Everyone feels a different kind of thing for something

I just realized that we are so different
I was taught that the little things make up & build up to bigger things
Yet the little-est things
You do not notice.

I don't know how to teach you sometimes
It's my fault
What am I supposed to do now?
Oh God, tell me what to do?

I love him alot
Our bond,
Supposed to be getting stronger
Am I stranded?

Norwegian Recycling - 8 become 1

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned it's back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on the corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved

My life is brilliant
My love is pure
I saw an angel
Of that I'm sure
She smiled at me on the subway
She was with another man
But I won't lose sleep on that
'Cause I've got a plan

I say it's ok
I can promise you it's alright
You ain't keeping me up all night, no more
You're not here but it's ok
I assure you babe it's alright
You ain't keeping me up all night, no more
You're not here but it's OK

See the stone set in your eyes
See the thorn twist in your side
I wait for you
Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you
With or without you
With or without you
With or without you
With or without you, a-ha
I can't live
With or without you

Tonight tonight tonight tonight
I wanna be with you tonight
Tonight tonight tonight tonight
I wanna be with you tonight
Tonight tonight tonight tonight
I wanna be with you tonight
Tonight tonight tonight tonight
I wanna be with you tonight

So what if you catch me,
Where would we land?
In somebody's life
For taking his hands
Sing to me hope as she's
Thrown on the sand
All of your work
Is rated again

It's alright and it's ok and
It's alright and it's ok and
It's alright and it's ok and
(You're not here with me)
It's alright and it's ok and (it's alright)
It's alright and it's ok and (it's ok)
It's alright and it's ok and
You're not here but ...
It's ok

SO BUSY SO BUSY!!! School work is killing me!!! :/

Disney channel stars
Send It On lyrics

A word's just a word
'Til you mean what you say
And love isn't love
'Til you give it away
We've all gotta gift
Yeah something to give to make a change

Send it on
On and on
Just one hand can heal another
Be a part
Reach your heart
Just one spark starts the fire
With one little action
The chain reaction will never stop
Make it strong
Shine a light and send it on

Just smile and the world will smile along with you
That small act of love
Is spent for one to become two
If we take the chances
To change circumstances
Imagine all we can do
If we ...

Send it on
On and on
Just one hand can heal another
Be a part
Reach your heart
Just one spark starts a fire
With one little action
The chain reaction will never stop
Make it strong
Shine a light and send it on
Send it on

There's power in all the choices we make
So i'm starting now there's not a moment to wait
A word's just a word
'Til you mean what you say
And love isn't love
'Til you give it away

Send it on
On and on
Just one hand can heal another
Be a part
Reach your heart
Just one spark starts a fire
With one little action
The chain reaction will never stop
Make it strong
Shine a light and send it on

On and on
Just one hand can heal another
Be a part
Reach your heart
Just one spark starts a fire
With one little action
The chain reaction will help things start
Make it strong
Shine a light and send it on
Shine a light and send it on
Shine a light and send it on

-the end-

the new is fresh but can it sustain the devil's voracious appetite?

charlene is screaming out needy!

MEGAN FOX is so hot, I would forgo so many things just to see her in the flesh.

anyway, this is so random! i have been wasting so much time! work work work!!!