Woohoo... I have had my Cross Country yesterday. Guess what? I came out 2nd in place and received a large trophy but not as big as Amanda's as she was 1st. Let me briefly say about my experience. It was a cool Friday morning. I ate a light breakfast and was taken to MacRitchie Reservoir by my Dad. Soon, the compeitiors for the 3rd race prepared themselves and proceeded to the starting point. When I arrived at the starting point, I was simply so nervous to speak. Some of the compeitiors told me that they wanted to run with me. But, what's the difference of running alone and running with another compeitior? Soon, the race started and I started by going fast alittle to get away from the crowd. When i arrived in the forest, I already felt like giving up, a sense of giving up in me, but I didn't do so. When i arrived at the point where girls and boys go different routes, I knew that this part was the most difficult for me to overcome. There were so many rocks and they were especially large. I was crawling my way up and the muscles were like burning and they were hurting. This was the part where most people feel the strong urge to give up. However, I tried to keep focuse and went ahead to overtake Mabel. I jogged briskly and I was right beside Amanda. She realized I was there and she faster her pace. She stopped several times and I had to tap my hand on her shoulders to encourage her. When you are so exhausted, even lifting your hand is a difficulty to you, and I had to do that several times I guess. Amanda, my mei, and I jogged towards the finishing line and I somehow looked back and I saw my coach, Ms Lim! She actually came to run in our race, actually she had already hint to me that she wants to run and compete with me. I guess she thinks to highly of me but I think otherwise. Then today, I went to SRJC and i intended to support Amanda in her Frisbee game, I ended up playing inside the games. I played Captains Ball and won yet another trophy. Haha... really enjoyed my day today... especially in the morning with Amanda and her friends... Alright! See Ya!

Hmmm... Cross Country is just 2 days away... Ms Lim is so excited as she has expressed her feelings during our netball training today. She told us that she really hoped that we will take up the the top 15 in the race. In a msn chat with her a few days ago, she said she'll be rooting for me and all that kind of stuff.. instead of getting power from her encouragements, I feel stressed. She and my team-mates kept hinting or saying that I'll win and take up the first few places. I really hope or wished I can accomplish her wish or command... I couldn't accopmlish her wish this year as my team and I lost in the netball tournament. Thinking of it, I regretted not training hard enough last year and this year I had to suffer for it. However, half a year has passed and soon a year would pass and, I hope my team-mates and I would be back on the tournament court to beat our opposing team with veageance. I kept thinking these few days... I'm with a flu and it had been a week, I had taken my flu medicine and still I have not recover. I really, really pray that Friday, my flu will at least disappear in the morning and come back in the afternoon. I realized I'm afraid of challenges ahead... How?! " CHARLENE, C'MON BE STRONG! "

I feel like a failure today... I've never felt this way before. Today, during netball training, Ms Lim made us run around Punggol and to Hougang and back to school. I was put at the back to guide Hui Ee and those who slack behind. I kept telling them to ' Jia You! ' and to keep running but none of them seems to listen... so fed up at that time, when I've persuaded them several times already. When we were about to get back to school after the long 5km, I felt the sense of giving up but I didn't, don't know why... Well, I feel that my relationship with my team-mates are drifting apart or further. In school, my class, today, a girl could curse and swear at a teacher and even say it's her right to scold the teacher. I feel like helping the teacher but I couldn't do anything, plus she's a friend of mine. I am seeing my friends grow into monsters and I'm turning into one too... What can i do? Feel so helpless... my friends are scolding vulgarities in class and I can hear them anytime in class... I have even began saying the word ' Wah Lao! '

Grrr... so sicked of Sundays... It's always so boring and dull. My parents always leave us at home and go out by themselves. Wonder when will my life on Sundays ever brighten? Haha... but I'll get to sleep at home and rest through the day, however, I hate to slack. I believe slacking leads me to a disadvantage of myself, people are improving themselves all over the world and I'm here slacking...zzz... I hate the word " SLACKING! " So bored... grrr... Tomorrow, it will be back to school! Hurray! I'm kind of crazy today. Let me plan what shall I do the coming next Sunday. Oh well, I had better pray that the weather will be favourable to me and I can swimming with my family. Oh ya... Amanda, my netball junior is officially my mei mei...don't tell you how she became my mei mei, very funny. Alright... See Ya!

Today just had a training at MacRitchie Reservoir, I don't know why... but it's like I've run for many times till the distance that I ran seem short and quick. Maybe earlier on I was running at the back with Pei Wen they all and we were chatting, that's why I forgot how long was the journey. I'm so afraid, today when I was about to finish my run, i saw Ms Lim and it's like she was placing her hopes on me to win. Well, I pretty tired after that, I slept right through the afternoon. Oh ya... I just received news that I was 3rd in my class and 14th in the level. After all that hardwork, I still lost to Debbie by missing a point. I got 74.1, she had 75.1... She was 2nd in class. Alright... I will write till here...

Today is a fun but tired day for me... Ms Lim conducted games such as Captains Ball. Siew Hong told me to join their group so I did so. As you know they think I'm tall, so they stationed me on the chair to receive the ball whenever they wanted to score. I didn't even had a single chance of getting down on the parade square to play, I felt used. However, I'm not very fit today, still a little unwell. 2A also ended up competing and they had a fierce compeition with 2C. They were the victory and proceeded to the final session. Siew Hong and I were the Combined Class team and we had to compete against our class 2A. In the end, our team, C.C won. Classmates in my class began to say I and Siew Hong betrayed them and we should have joined the 2A class. Some people even asked me this lame question, " Why you grow so tall??? " How am I going to answer this particular question? I don't think I'm so tall, so many people out there are taller than me, so why should they think this way? Maybe I'm taller than them. Cross Country is nearing, and I'm still with a bad flu, I don't know how am I going run and be Top 10 in this condition? I had better get well soon...

Today is such a boring day... I don't think I will be going out later. Yesterday, I went to swim to tan myself, however when I arrived there, the weather changed and it became cloudy, the Sun was covered by the clouds and i didn't know how was I going to tan. Today, I intend to go East coast to cycle, but the weather seems unfavourable to me. I don't know why, ever since the exams ended, I seemed to become saddier and not happier. Only the day after the examinations, I was belated. My life seems to be in grey and black shades, don't know why...

I am so belated... my examinations are over. During the holidays, I intend to tan myself till I'm satisfied... Tomorrow, my parents intend to take me for a swim...hehe. On the other hand, when I think about the both of them, I can't help but keep brooding about it. Oh gosh... I haven't been exercising recently, I have to do something about it. I have recently watched a show ' Dolphin at the Bay '. The story is so saddening, so many crying about love. I intend to keep myself fully occupied during the school holidays... Alright.. shall stop here..

I am so sad... Chocolate hold Mei Xuan's hand... I saw it with my own eyes. Don't know what to say, hate both of them right now. I don't want to see them again. They have always walked home together, and I often see them. I don't want to see it... I am jealous... so heartbroken... the image of them together keep apearing in my head. Can't stand it... tomorrow is mine Mathematics exam and I am not really prepared for it. Alright... good bye