Alright. Since jamy has been bugging me to update my blog and I have some spare time on hand, I decided to pick up on this laid back blog. Sigh. I have been training and running from last week until now that I had severe muscle ache on monday. I had problems walking. Darn it. And I also had my 2.4 km run on monday as well. And coming to terms with it, my timing sucked big-time even though I came in one of the first two. Haha.

Netball training was fun. The coach came down on monday and I was rather pissed off with her. She made a crude remark that given our skills in netball, we did not stood a chance to get into another JC's netball school team except for the common ones. She sucked man. And she even went on to say that she train them to play netball for fun, their goal is not to win but to gain experience. I felt like delivering a punch into her face man. Yes, I'm violent when my principles are challenged. I was brought up by two coaches who were so committed to winning and bringing the best out of the team yet this coach tried to bring me down. So what if my skills are incomparable to those in AJC? No one especially a coach is to bring me down. Especially when I had always looked upon a coach. Yes, often I do feel inferior but your comments really pissed me off.

Great. I made several friends who were so lovable and kissable. Haha. Joking. They were lovable la. They are shu yi, magdalene and shi yuan. One from tks, cedar and anderson respectively. Cool right? haha. I think shu yi is especially talented in running and she has the looks as well. An all-rounder. haha. Shi yuan is ... haha, she looks like a cat seriously. Her eyes are captivating for one thing I know. She has very huge and round eyes. Ya. Magdalene looks pretty unique from a glance but she has a unique laughter. haha.

And oh ya. Jamy, Mabel and Ame. I miss you all so much. How I wished we could hang out like we used to do. And jamy, I miss your signature hug, it always makes me melt. haha. And mabel, I miss your hug and your laughter, it never fails to tickle my sides. And ame, I miss our chemistry when we talk about things in life, you're a one in a kind companion. (: And finally debbie. You know, how I recalled how you fell like a frog on the ground and i went to our rescue? Remember how we laughed after school like it's nobody's business? haha. We laughed about almost everything in the world. I wished time could bring us back to that time and life would be so much brighter. And I miss punggol sec and 4A! Bring me back to the past! *Poof* whoops. I'm still here. haha.

School has been great so far. I made a few close clinques. Haha. I am so gonna miss JC life after I have re-drew from the college. I went for literature lectures a few times this week, it was really interesting especially when you have the passion in this area. Sigh. Nonetheless, I did not got literature as one of my subject combinations. I was sort of disappointed though. Hms. Life has been a little brighter nowadays. (: without you around. But the yearnings continues.

I crashed Mei xuan, elly, amanda, chew ling and mabel into SRJC today. Heh heh. Aren't I omnipotent? hees. haha. I was freaking freaked out when they wanted to take attendance while Mei xuan and Mabel were in the lecture theatre together with me. haha. They sneaked out eventually. haha. Ya. We had greater fun when elly and group arrives. hees. I had netball training in the evening and I was sort of anticipating it. The seniors made us do drills and I got elly and amanda into participating in it coherently. We had a ball of a time. Hees. I got to know two netball seniors who were rather adorable and cute. haha. They were kai xin and joanne, I think. Our drills were planned by them and we had tons of fun. I'll be having netball training next monday and it's getting physical. Darn it. But I'll just enjoy it. hees.

Crap. I'm down with a bad flu today. Joanne asked me to take care, that was so sweet of her. haha. diao. hms. ya. I hope I do not come up with a fever tonight. I feel so horrible. Crap. I have many plans the day after. Drats. I'm so in a dilemma. Should I re-draw from junior college? As the day passes, I find it harder to leave this lovely school. Sigh. What should I do?

The well as an abyss as deep as my thoughts

Flows waters as calm as my soul

As your presence exceeds my scope

Shall we part at the rivers of Rome.

I'm so glad to say that I have officially completed SRJC 's 3-day orientation camp. It was so tiring. I wanted to skip going to school on the second day because the first day was rather boring. But the school proved me wrong on the second and third day. Well, my group leader who was called Solomon was not really good looking but there was something unique about him that attracted me. But anyways. There were several pretty girls who were recruited into the school but few handsome ones. I made a conclusion. Girls from paya lebar methodist are cute and pretty. Haha. Bai lin agreed with me too.

Last night, after the long but fun day at school which ended at 9 pm, darn bai lin called me on my phone to chat with me. And oh please, I was dreadfully worn out la. He kept pestering me to talk on with him. Sigh. Anyway, it was a good time to catch up with him after so long. We talked alot about his life and mine, really miss laughing my head off with him. I guess I should meet up with him one of these days. But I have been so busy since day one at school. These days when I reached home, I would take my much needed bath before I drop dead on my comfortable bed. There was nothing much to think about anymore. I used to think alot when it was dark though I do ponder about stuff in the day too but not in depth. This may be a good thing after all.

Oh ya. Third day at SRJC was really outrageously fun! We had college dance and cheers. I was really hyped up with the shoutings and screamings. Ha ha ha. I kind of miss SRJC now. Oh no. I wonder how am I going to leave the school? There is a sense of attachment to it now. My new friends and a fresh start. Sigh. Crap.

I went back to school today for the cca selections in Punggol sec. However, I guessed I was not much of a help to my juniors. I was practically walking around the school aimlessly, trying to recollect the memories I created in the not-yet-but-close-to beautiful* school. Shortly after, Mei Xuan and Yizhen accompanied me to singapore poly. Some buildings inside the school looked really old which kind of put me off. I'm headed for temasek poly anyway. We went to queensway and ikea too. I had an awesome time at ikea. Haha. Mei xuan was really hilarious. Haha. Stupid. She mistooked a candle holder for a glass wine and she picked it up to sort of take a sip. I laughed my head off because it was obviously not a glass wine. haha. I catched up alot with Mei xuan. She told me what was happening around her and stuff. Ya.

Fragments of you are eroding

Washed slowly away by the worn heartbeat deep inside

One more frail beat

Thou be cleanly swept away

` some times, i wonder what are you thinking. after years, we really do know nothing about each other. this is the facade behind our smiling faces.

This is crappie. Melancholy is enveloping me this very moment. I wished I never knew what was a heart, never knew what were feelings. Then I would very much be a cold-blooded creature who can never experience the joys of life. I read from a blog which I often visit that she finds sadness easier to describe compared to the times when she's happy. Therefore, she indulges in sadness all the time to write poems and stuff. And she is nocturnal when she does this.

I watched Death Note 2 this evening. I thought that it was very much an anticipated movie after all. I watched it with my younger sibling. While I was queuing up for the tickets, I was reminded of *. Sigh. I brushed aside the memory. Perhaps I indeed thought too much about it. I should look ahead instead. I do not know how to describe this feeling of . . . Urgh. I hate jay chou's ju hua tai song though it's a nice song.

I am undergoing major changes in my character presently. May I evolve into a monster soon. Haha. My head's spinning. I keep experiencing perennial dreams these nights. It's the same dream. I dream of the same person. Or perhaps I did not? ha. I'm confused myself.

` searching for a new self.