blah ... it's another short break for me this weekend. ahaha. Urgh, i won't have netball trainings for the next 2 weeks though, it just makes me so upset. It's because they are focusing on the main team since the POL-ITE games are on the 18th of july. Anyway, I am not giving up this cca.


I have been hit by the love storm recently. ahaha. I seriously don't know how to commit myself to a relationship and I am afraid to do so. It's not that I don't wish to accept now but it's just that I have several reasons to not do so. I know you are patient and good to me, it's just plain selfish of me alright and I can't help it.


urgh. I haven't been reading books at all thus I totally have no inspiration to write the beautiful english. I like to express my thoughts into beautiful english. ahaha. Urgh. I'm so tired now ... so dreamy. I don't wish to ponder too much now.

`are you the one not

this is so weird. I have totally no idea why a friend of mine has been so cold towards me since the last time we met for lunch and we went to netball training together. urgh. %^$%$#$&^%& PEACE.


I just received a call from sh. She told me something which was really unexpected though. I wonder how things are going to proceed for me the next 4 weeks. Thankfully, I have ame and mabel to help me with the coaching. I really have no confidence to do all this alone.


HELP! Everything's crashing down on me! Tell me what's going on? i'm going to slash my wrist. ahahah. i'm just plain bored out now. (;

Grrr ... I had a hard time getting to sleep last night. I did something in my life which I would have never done before last night. ahhaha. Stop guessing, no one could ever guessed it. But anyway, i am suffering from the after-effects of everything now. crap. I am so sleepy now. I had a LONG day! Let me recount it. ahha.


had pipc lessons together with debbie at 9 am until 11 am, that stupid girl, kept disturbing me. ahhaha. I tell you, I am so unlucky today alright. I forgot that I had to wear shoes for my lab practical this afternoon so I rushed home to get my shoes! And to add it on, I puke this morning after breakfast. Urgh. whatever. Thereafter, I had the so-called dumb csas lesson and we received our term-test which wasn't very idealistic for me. ahahah. I rushed home after that, got back to school at around 2.30 pm and ya da ya da.... i'm simply too lazy to talk about the rest of the day. Lab was DUMB. heh.


~ i wished your heart were with me.

): I just got back from hong kong a day ago. It feels weird to be back so soon when I was enjoying myself to the max over there. Hong Kong is indeed a shopping paradise. However, I wouldn't consider emigrating to there because the traffic isn't all very efficient over there. Haah. SHOP, SHOP & SHOP! Hong kong is such a huge place that I walked until my legs went wobbly. We didn't had enough time to finish shopping every district though. Hong kong is FUN! But, the hotel we stayed at was creepy. hahah. I won't mention why then.


I went shopping with winnie today at marina square. I think she's a little nuts la, I just got home from hong kong and she wanted to have our lunch at a hong kong restaurant. In the end, we did. hahah. Urgh. I'm so tired now. I haven't got enough rest yet. There will be a netball team bonding outing tomorrow and I am not sure whether I can make it anot. It's alright, I'm not in the main team anyway. But I love my team-mates. (:


Alright, I'm going to sleep soon I guess. I'm so beat. I had netball training this evening and we went to the gym to work out. And when I got home to use my toilet, I realized that the toilet door could be opened very, very easily. hahah. gosh. i'm nuts. I had a fun time at training today. (:

Grrr ... I had quite a time getting to sleep last night. My back was hot and scratchy, lying on my back was a chore. Oh well, nevermind about that. I was reading back on all my past entries when I realized that almost all the entries had a netball subject in it. Then I was like wondering does netball really have that much impact in my life? hahah. I think I'm crazy, anyway.


Yay! I'm flying soon!!!! I'm going to take tons of pictures man, going to take pics on the plane, pics at the airport, pics EVERYWHERE! Hopefully, I would get in the mood la. Or else I wouldn't like taking pictures because I would have that damn stern look on my face. hahah.


Urgh. I'm so bored now yet sleepiness overwhelmes me. It's like ... I wished I could have a more exciting life. Don't you think the typical human lifestyle is very mundane? We are all working everyday to earn a safe keep. And when we finally get to loosen up and enjoy ourselves, the time passes quickly with a blink of the eye. That's why I think the camera is a very important tool, it helps to capture the very precious moments in life. hahah. And to this, I recommend .... (behaves like a saleswoman) hahah.


Uh oh... la la la la la la la life is wonderful ... ha la la la la la la life goes for circles .... ha la la la ... hhaha! too bored you see!

Finally. I went to sentosa today and had my training this evening, finally everything is over. I just felt that training was very stressful but I keep persisting for the wrong reasons? I am not even sure myself.


The sun was unpredictable this afternoon. It rained for a while and we guys just played in the rain like nobody's business. Soon after, the rain stopped and the sun shone like crazy. I was like playing volleyball right beneath the sun and guess what, I'm as red as a cooked crab now. hahah. Urgh, my back hurts like nuts. Aiya, i don't want to bother. I have much better things to brood over. Oh well, brooding is not a very nice thing to do anyway.


I am so lost now, lost in the midst of a huge desert. I don't know where or how I am going to find you. I feel so weak now. If only you were there close to me to support when I'm going down, but you were nowhere close because you're too far away. Too faraway. This is just too raw.

Urgh. It's so bloody hot now. I don't know why. I guess it's because of my workout at my junior's netball training earlier this afternoon. My juniors were really atrocious man, especially the sec ones, it's no wonder ... sigh. nevermind. I'm too tired to think about them.


Urgh.... I have got a busy day ahead tomorrow! It's sun-tanning and training day! I'm like going to rush to training after 4 pm to tp for my netball training. dots. Tonight is so hot man!

This weekend is sooo boring... urgh. I just got home from having coffee with aloy at compass point. We chatted much then he sent me home in his car. hahah. Not bad la, a guy his age quite loaded already. Hms. Yup.


I went to watch the netball super league finals yesterday. It was super exciting la, because one of my senior was in vipers and my coach was umpiring. I saw jodine and grala there too(my seniors too). I was with chew ling, elly and pei wen, by the way. I even saw ms coral lim too, but she didn't saw us however. haah. Vipers lost to the Marlins though. I was kind of supporting vipers since my senior was playing for them. I saw jean ng! ahh. haha.


Last night, I was having a late dinner with pei wen and chew ling and we were gossiping about someone being a lesbian. hahah. Someone. hahah. Then I was like thinking what's wrong with someone being a lesbian, it's alright what. It's not like they can help it right. Besides, I have come acrossed many people who aren't straight. Yup. urgh. I suffered from a bad gastric pain last night that I had to head to the pharmacy to purchase some antacid tablets to ease the damn pain. I think I might get stomach ulcer very soon. AH!


I'm going to be so busy next week. Trainings, sun-tanning and trainings again! And I'm going to fly after that! SHOP, SHOP & MORE SHOPPING! Heh. I'm so looking forward to that. Perhaps I can leave all my damn frustrations there after all the shopping. (:


`i'm so dead. i think i have a thing for you but you are not with me.

Urgh. I'm having my term test next week, it's so frustrating. But I'll get it over and done with soon and fly off! hahah. Things hasn't been proceeding smoothly though. I feel so sick now, yes, I have fallen ill just days before the term test. URGH. I hate this but this isn't the first time. What to do.


I spent some time thinking about some things a few nights ago and I finally bucked up enough courage to tell someone about it. Even though I feel much better now, I still feel bad about scaring someone. hahah. Alright, this scar of mine can never heal itself. At least I hope it will.


Sometimes when things happen, I choose to let it be because I can no longer control the outcome. Some may say that I am uttering nonsense because no matter what, we still have control over what we want to do. But I am telling you, everytime I try to control what I want to do, I have to try very hard when minimum effort needs to be given. This makes me wonder whether I have a mental disability. [:


Alright, I seriously don't know what I am really talking about. I am running a fever now I think. God bless me. [: nights.