I do not like the way I am feeling now. Right now. I hate this feeling. I can have the whole world under my palms but not the heart of the one. I HATE this! BUT, i'm very optimistic. There are many who are graving to enter my heart anyway. Aftermath? I don't feel that you deserve my love.

I do not know whether I should be blogging about this anot, but I can't sustain keeping this problem inside. Please do not come asking me who is the person mentioned below. Someone confessed his likes for me last night and it came as a shock to me. I can't make a decision now? I really don't know whether this is right. It feels inappropriate for us to.

URGH! My eye is red and swollen this morning! It's disgusting and eeky. I could barely open my eyes. And until now, it's still quite swollen. Hence, I skipped going out with my family today to avoid unnecessary attention to my poor eye. Aw. Hms. ): I have been on the drops since this morning. I wonder will it be alright tomorrow? hahaha.

YAY! It's a much anticipated day tomorrow! Heh heh. Hees. I can't say why though. hahaah.

uh oh. Things are going pretty well for me! hees. I bought a new bag! MU! hahah. I love it to tons. It's vintage brown. I have settled most of the problematic things that are hindering me from giving my biggest smile. heh. I'm just going to collect my medical report on 2 April and head straight to temasek poly to hand it up once and for all.

I was talking to bai lin the other night. We were like talking and chatting when he told me he liked this girl. hahaha. I won't divulge who it is. He's such a chicken la. He's always calling me in the middle of the night or when it's in the the dead of the night and he expects me to pick it up to chat with him when I'm like halfway in lala land. Hms. And we talked crap all night.

I went shopping at bugis about a day ago. I saw this really magnificient NICE miniature electric guitar pendant at perlini slivers'. It's thirty bucks. Urgh! I wanttt it!!! hahah. I'm going to save up for it somehow. Or is it worth my effort to save up for something that isn't worthwhile? Hms. (; i'm so hype now. Heh.

I miss a person now. -.- haha.

Today was alright. I had an outing with the girls and two guys. We went to collect ame's and deb's medical report at international plaza. Mabel decided to drop by there with us for her check-up as well. For me, I do not know why I was there. hahah. We later went to bugis to hit some drums at the arcade. It was FUN! hahah. BUT, when I got home, I received a letter which spoilt my bloody high mood. crap. I've got to settle some things bloody fast now. Urghh.

`i want to be a goth. heh.

everything's not yet over. guide me over this little hurdle, plueease...

oh gosh! I'm so beat now. I went to the zoo today! It was a rather long but much anticipated trip there. I pretty much enjoyed the wild animal show. The seal was so adorable. Heh. However, there was much walking to do. It was as though as we were trekking in the forest. haha. I wonder how mabel is faring after her 5 days trek in the mountains. haha. My lunch was taken rather late because KFC was flooded with parents getting food for their kids. We had to drag ourselves(my JC friends) all the way back to the entrance to get some food. It was pathetic la. Overall, it was fun but money not well-spent.

I hate my life at this very, very moment and time.

I feel bad about something which I did today. Instead of helping my dear juniors with their schoolwork, I went out with my sister to orchard. Urgh. I'm sorry, my dearest. haha. Anyway, they feel so close yet so far away from my heart. I feel that as everyone proceed to their next phase of life, they leave behind some unspoken misunderstandings and even friendships. ANYWAY, I wished I could clear up some of these things before I leave for the next one.


Uh huh. I bought a new top from ZARA today. It was the very opposite of inexpensive. My pockets are coming apart now. I've got to start saving up. (: perhaps some self-control might come in handy. By the way, tangs of germs are spreading through my house. My sister's got a bad flu and throat, and I'm getting them too. Urgh. My weak immune system. Uh oh. My eyes are squinting now just to type these alphabets out on blogger. Poor me. My eye dropper.

urgh. this is utterly irritating. I AM IRRITATED!

I am morphing into a dead person. I don't have the mood to blog somehow. I am so dead and tired. haha. okay.

`I CAN'T WAIT FOR SENTOSA!

Hurray! I've got into chemical engineering at temasek polytechnic, and I have two others who will join me at the same school! Debbie and Jonas! haha. Besides that, I am also glad for amelia who made it into mass communication at tp. heh heh. Hms. I had a rather peaceful day, not much people called to interrupt me. haha.

This brings me to recall that there was a tremor felt in singapore today. Many working adults were interrupted at work. Students at st. andrews had their lessons disrupted. Perhaps the world is indeed coming to an end. There are disasters and chaos everywhere in the world. Soon, everyone in the world, anyplace, anywhere, will not be spared.

I had a call with stupid bai lin last night. We chit chatted for about close to two hours? hms. that chicken. He is a baddie. Alright, I got to go. May god watch over the world.

I had a lazy day again. haha. I slept about four hours in the day after waking up at 8 am in the morning. Hms. BUT, I still feel sleepy. There's no adrenaline or satisfaction I get from doing things, which is what i really hate. My dad is flying abroad tonight to get his job done overseas. I somehow dislike the inconvenience without dad but still this is a short one and hopefully he will be back home safe and sound. God bless him. (:

I have been eating alot guilty-conscious food recently and i haven't been working out. I guess I'll head to the gym or tracks soon. I have to. hms. And I'll be joining the hip hop class at the sports complex when my sister passes her driving test. urgh. poor her. hms. She's been rather gloomy since she failed her first test recently. But no worries! I have faith that she will pass the next one. (: my dear sister. haha. hms.

I hanged out with shi jing and gang today. It was a good catching up time. Everybody talked and laughed at pizza hut. (: I felt really gratifying. haha. Nonetheless, shi jing had to leave early. So ya. It was left with the five of us. uh oh. I am watching the both of you, my lovebirds. haha. ya. It was a semi-happy day. So there goes my day ...

Last night, I had a surreal dream. I dreamt that I had a dispute with mabel. And it was really bad. She insulted my loved ones and I retaliated. I was real mad in the dream. I'd wanted to slap her or something. haha. Then I also recalled that there were hints of the JACM disbanding. haha. It sounded and was so real that I woke up with a jerk. hms. It is indeed weird. haha.

Urgh. I'm going to get preparations to keep me occupied next week. I'm going to get english comics and some books. Yup. I am also going to rent dvds. haha. It's plain enjoying next week!

You Are a Newborn Soul

You are tolerant, accepting, and willing to give anyone a chance. On the flip side, you're easy to read and easily influenced by others. You have a fresh perspective on life, and you can be very creative. Noconformist and nontraditional, you've never met anyone who's like you. Inventive and artistic, you like to be a trendsetter. You have an upbeat spirit and you like almost everything. You make friends easily and often have long standing friendships. Implusive and trusting, you fall in love a little too easily. Souls you are most compatible with: Bright Star Soul and Dreaming Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

ouch, my back hurt. It has been hurting since last night. So irritating. Hms. Nothing much has happened lately. It's just plain boring and not-so-usual lifestyle now. haha. My dad just fixed the damn router last night, so here I am blogging again. Crap. Urgh. I think I am going to catch more sleep. (: