hello bloggie . . . I'm back here to update you. Have been in the stresses of preparing for the exams lately. I did some planning and I'm afraid that I won't have adequate time to revise through everything by next week. Oh wells, a good time management is all I need and to follow it faithfully. My gosh . . . I have been faced with friendship problems lately. It's been bugging me. Wells, I don't understand why I tend to react this way during the exams period. I feel apologetic towards my friends. Mabel has been trying to get me to study with her yet I left her to study with others the fifth time. I feel guilty. Then this afternoon, Chew Ling and Bernice pleaded with me to have lunch with them, just an hours' time of lunch yet I strongly refused. I did this all because I was feeling uptight about the exams and I felt that since that it was the exam period, I ought to be at home doing plenty of revision instead of being out there to enjoy myself. I also feel that studying at malls isn't very conducive as it is noisy. Though I used to do that frequently in the past and I will still continue about doing it.
I feel that I have let down my friends. I ought to be despised upon by you all. I am a failure in friendships. You all have helped to build my character and self-confidence, especially you Mabel. I can't say how grateful I am to you and how much I have learnt from this great personality of you. Though we tend to quarrel over little little things, you should know that I won't take them to heart and that I love you as a good friend.
I guess I will be back to norm after the exams. So be rest assured that I will be my old self. I love you all people! All the best for your exams!

hello bloggie . . . I have learnt to take things in my stride and I will study really hard for this end of year exam. I just read Irene's blog and it kind of inspired me to do my best for these last papers for the year. I need to quickly revise the topics and clarify things that I do not understand with my teacher. So far, I am not facing much problem with Mathematics. However, I am going to study with Irene in the middle of next week or something. I need to put my focus on Chemistry and Physics. Alright, got to go . . . See Ya!

bloggie . . . I touched E maths Trigo today but I have not completed it. I have been negative lately, I need someone to inspire me. Ms Teoh, Ms Lim and Ms Kang!!! Help ah . . . Me drowning already! I love these three teachers man, they are the light of my life, my guiders in life. Final Yr exams are very very close*, stay positive! Focus on the books! Things are getting complicated in my life presently. Wells, maybe I'm just tightening up. I have to be more open. I'm so sleepy, don't wish to describe the happenings that took place today. I will talk about it the night after. Good night, people! Sweet dreams.

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hello bloggie . . . This week's been a hard week. I had english oral the day before with Mr Tang being the invigilator. I thought it was going to be rather stressful to talk to a teacher but anyways I did it smoothly and I enjoyed it, frankly speaking. I have been revising consistently these nights and it was like yesterday night I skimmed through the Chemistry textbook and I took the short test today. I ended up failing it because of some major careless mistakes! It was so obvious and it didn't occur to me that I read the question wrongly. I'm so dumb . . .I feel stupid. Anyways, I will be attending the Chem. Remedial next tues and I will see whether it helps. I have got better confidence in chemistry than social studies, I don't know how I fared in the test one. So stupid. Sigh . . . Tomorrow, I will be studying with Irene and Mei Xuan at Compass point on Trigonometry. I hope everything goes well because if Irene suddenly backs out because she has something on, I doubt I will be heading with Mei Xuan to Compass. hahas. I belittle MeiXuan . . . hahas, joking!
Recently, I tell myself not to bother about the affairs of the heart. However, it has still been bothering me. You get what I meant? I still like him alot. Grrghhs . . . No, I don't like him. Forget about him ba. Sigh. Wells, I control my heart and I hope I have good management of it. I keep sighing. By the way, I will be heading to Bishan Park to celebrate Latern Festival on account of my dad's persuasion. Alright, I am going to do what I am supposed to do. See Ya!

hello bloggie, I promised myself that I will touch my books today because it's the last day of the holidays. Oh wells, I didn't managed to catch a glispe of my books last night. Life have been rather boring lately ever since I enjoyed myself entirely at Sentosa last wednesday. My skin have not peeled a bit but some have come off over my nose. Stressed, stressed and more stressed . . . Sigh. Can something exciting take place in me life? I really promise to work hard at my studies after this event happens. Though even if nothing happens, I still got to work great hard at my studies. I have a goal in mind, remember that. Hmm . . . I feel that I am falling ill soon. I have a slight sore throat. I don't understand why am I becoming more negative gradually. I have to stay positive! +ve! Alright, I got to go . . . See Ya!

hello bloggie . . . I'm currently using my dad's laptop to update an entry because my drat little sister is currently on the main computer. I'm outrageously bored right now, I don't have the feel to study right now when I have the time of the world to do so. I am such a weird person. I need to gain control of myself, how come I am slacking? However, I finished a considerately thick fiction book in 3 days which is rather amazing to me because I have never done so before. The book that kept me on my toes all this while was called 'Dance of the Assasssins'. It has a very exciting but confusing storyline however I grasp the story relatively well. I was glued to the book for an entire three days, this shows how interesting this book is. Oh, by the way, the author is Herve Jubert. He uses lots of Italian words in his story which makes the story kind of weird. hahas. It seem like I am advertising this book as such. I am so bo liao right now. This laptop is keeping me preoccupied. I spent my whole day reading. My family were all at home in the morning and I felt the warmth. Hmm . . . bored as can be right now . . . what shall I do later? Study?

dear bloggie . . . I am stressed up. I have not been studying frequently and how I wished I had the full concentration on my studies instead of enjoying myself all the time. I need more determination and focus. I have been a bad girl lately . . . I have not been exercising, studying and well, meditating my inner self. I feel like breaking down. In three weeks time, I would be studying intensively and it's hitting down on me badly. I feel like I'm clenched up in a fist. How I wished I don't have to face compeitition with that someone*, I am forced to face it. Focus . . . Remember your goal, Charlene. I know you may think by saying such things to myself, I am nuts. However, it really helps. I miss Ms Lim once again, how she used to listen to my woes. hahas. Alright, seem like typing out my frustration is not helping much. I still feel tightened up. Good Night, diary.

hello! I'm so bored right now. Right. I went to settle my project at Terence's house in Punggol this morning. I had to wake up twice. Sigh! I had a bad dream last night. I dreamt that I was going to seat for my exams the next day and I was fully unprepared. I woke up rather stressed up because my exams are just three more weeks away which is not a long time for me to spend, frankly speaking. I am very tensed up today. By the way, I had a ball of a time at terence's place. We did our project there and I got to play his Xbox and it was so fun! That stupid Debbie, she kept beating me at the games. Basically, nothing much have happened to me today. Well . . . maybe later might be a little exciting for me because I will be heading out with my Mom to the hair salon! Maybe I will get a good massage and get some relaxation! wahahas. Good Bye.

hello blog . . . I went to sentosa today. At first when I woke up in the morning, the skies was not very desirable. Hence, it dampened my spirits, I did not really feel like going already. However due to Mei Xuan's persistent will to go Sentosa to get a good tan, we headed there. For your info, we went there in threes, Chew Ling; Mei Xuan and myself. I thought that it was rather lame and boring for three person to head to sentosa with nothing much in mind. Anyway, we went ahead with it. On our way to Sentosa, Mei Xuan thought that it was a good idea to call Irene along. Irene was rather hesitant to go but anyway she came. Soon, Cassandra got pulled in too, she agreed to meet us at sentosa because she had a volleyball with her. We arrived at Palawan Beach. The sun was not really bright and strong thus during that period of time we borrowed someone's volleyball to have some fun. Soon Mei Xuan and I went running into the waters and both of us decided to swim to the floats provided for us which was quite a distance from the shore. We began swimming and soon I couldn't feel my feet. I began to panic and we swum back to shore. Our first and second attempts were useless. Irene arrived and she took Mei Xuan with her and they swam with the help of the balls connected to the floats. Shortly after, I followed on with Chew Ling and Cassandra. For your info, the balls connectors were gross! There were algaes growing on it and I had no choice but to grab hold of it tightly for the sake of my dear life! It was because I nearly drown in my second attempt earlier on. Those two idiot Mei Xuan and Chew Ling told me that they wanted to swim to the floats. I began swimming towards the float and halfway, both of them began screaming that they were afraid and wanted to head back. I turned back and this time, I felt a sudden surge of fear and panicky in me. I wanted to head back hurrily. Then I swam to the ball connectors where Mei Xuan and Chew Ling were. I grabbed it but I thought that I was still sinking. This time, I became short of breath and I started gasping for air. I went under the water and came up again exhausted. The waters were damn deep! Hahas. I pushed Mei Xuan down for support. Then I slowly make my way back to shore. This was the nightmare of my life man . . . I'm super afraid of the waters now. Anyway, with the arrival of Irene and Cassandra, the atmosphere was enlightened. Unknowingly the sun came out and we began sun tanning like nuts. I took some pictures of Irene and MeiXuan together with myself in my mobile phone. We had a hell lot of a time man. I love being with Irene and Mei Xuan now. By the way, we also had a ball of a time spraying . . . ssshh . . . sun tanning oil. I am supposed to put sunscreen instead of sun tanning lotion, my dad's order. They kept pestering me to allow them some spray on their arms. My 'banana boat' sun tanning lotion ar . . . so expensive man. Nevermind, I had a ball of a time with them so I won't regret it. By the way, I got real tanned. My arms are super red now and I like it! hahas. I'm nuts. Alright, since I have enjoyed myself already, I have to focus on my studies right now. I am going to study Chemistry and Physics tomorrow. No disruptions please! Good Night sweetie bloggie, for allowing me a listening ear.

bloggie . . . Today i had my PESS carnival. There were quite a number of strong schools there. We won 2 out of 5 matches. We lost to Westwood, Katong Convent and Tanglin. I feel that our team could beat katong convent however due to minor mistakes and being not steady*, we lost to them. I also feel that the scores are rather close in these three games. Well, I did not get to play in this carnival as much times as in the previous one last year. Ms Teoh made Elly the Goal-Keeper in most games. I can understand that because Elly needs to gain more exposure in order to become stronger in the mind(in a sense). I used to be very, and I mean very nervous in the previous games I played last year. However, I feel a sense of steadiness in the games I played today. I am more determined and focused in the things I want to do in the court. Example, I wanted to intercept a lope from a tall shooter, though I did not do it successfully, I actually perform the drill that I was taught in the court on the shooter! I know what I want in the court now.
I am a little disappointed we did not make it to round 2. A feeling of giving up lingers in my mind. It's so difficult to win a match victoriously. I really want our team to win victoriously and bring glory to our coach. I hope that we can fight very hard for the tournament next year because it's my last year. So juniors, do your senior here a favour, work super hard for our tournament and senior here will work hard together with you all too. I don't want to leave my secondary school without any achievements that I can remember for life beautifully. I think I am going to become a sports teacher because I found out that I love netball and sports alot. It's going to become my passion . . .

bloggie . . . it will be my carnival tomorrow. I hope that I can gain strength and courage from this special someone so that I can put my best foot forward. It's been quite a few months before I took part in such a carnival. Last night you can say I had a hard time sleeping because I was suffering from a slight headache due to being soaked in the rain for long hours. My mind is half-awake right now. I better get enough rest today in preparation for tomorrow's match. I have Ms Teoh's 'wisdom' words in my mind from yesterday's training till now. Bring my brains into the court. I am thinking of how to counter a tall-shooter when she gets a lope. Though I learnt it yesterday, it still takes lots of courage; great timing and determination to get out there and actually perform it. I have to be confident of my abilities. I must tell myself that I am capable of doing whatever I want as long as I set my mind on it!!! Phew . . . Breathe in and out . . Alright . . . See Us stomp you on the court tomorrow!

hi bloggie, I spent my day yesterday practising A maths functions with Irene and Mei Xuan. I took the test today and I basically have no comments about it. Well, I had netball training in the afternoon. It was pouring and some pupils were taking their prelims thus we had the least choice to select where we could train. It was until Ms Teoh arrived and I was like(depicted) the flower finally seeing my sunlight. hahas. I don't know it's whether I'm too sensitive or whatever, I feel that Ms Teoh is picking on me. I hope that I don't feel this way for long.
I got my results today. I fared relatively alright to me. I aim and want to score better at my final examinations. I always expect higher expectations of myself no matter how good I am. I am a perfectionist. However as I have said, I am not perfect in any way. I am sleepy, going to take a nap. I will focus on Sunday's carnival!!!

hi bloggie, I spent my day yesterday practising A maths functions with Irene and Mei Xuan. I took the test today and I basically have no comments about it. Well, I had netball training in the afternoon. It was pouring and some pupils were taking their prelims thus we had the least choice to select where we could train. It was until Ms Teoh arrived and I was like(depicted) the flower finally seeing my sunlight. hahas. I don't know it's whether I'm too sensitive or whatever, I feel that Ms Teoh is picking on me. I hope that I don't feel this way for long.
I got my results today. I fared relatively alright to me. I aim and want to score better at my final examinations. I always expect higher expectations of myself no matter how good I am. I am a perfectionist. However as I have said, I am not perfect in any way. I am sleepy, going to take a nap. I will focus on Sunday's carnival!!!

hello bloggie . . . I am sorry people, I have not updated you. I have not been very at leisure lately. It has been rather stressful for me recently. I will be having a carnival this sunday and we will be competing with well-known schools. I don't want to say that they're good because no matter how good they are, we will still play against them, intercept their balls and score goals. I know we will do that because I'm sicked of losing out. You may think I am crapping but these are my heartfelt words. I will do my best at the carnival but it depends on whether I will be given the chance. However, this is a team game. If I'm the only one thinking like that, it's of no point. I need to get the team to think this way.
I am afraid that I will be affected by some obstacles in my way. Sometimes, I wonder why teenagers can be so dumb . . . It's like I just found out that one of my friend whom is a him, he lost his virginity. Well, life's just that, if you don't treasure it, you will only live to regret it. That said, maybe I should not make that comment because only the people who have gone through it and regretted it have that authority to say that it's a dumb thing to do.
Yesterday night, I sat in my room on the floor and listened to an mp3 player. As the music went through my head, thoughts began flowing. I wondered what I wanted in life once again. This time, I thought hard and I decided that I would join the next Punggol Superstar if there was one. I began singing my heart out because of what life was. After singing for half an hour, I thought that I was tired and maybe singing was not my passion? People looked and thought hard before they found the passion of their life. My dad found his. I have not. Though I do find some passion in netball.
Alright, i got to go .. . Take care people.