Hi... today's Ms Lim's birthday. I went to Compass Point the day before to select a suitable present for her with Debbie, however, they were either too expensive or unsuitable. In the end, I decided on a bear which was quite cute to me. I am getting frustrated with Elly. She does whatever she wants and totally ignored my feelings. I don't know what to do/say about myself, I don't know how to defend or fight for my rights. I am filled with sadness the day I've gotten my results, although the results were acceptable to many people, it was not up to my expectations. I kept asking myself why??? I've studied hard and why can't I have met my expectations? I stayed up late till the middle of the night to prepare myself and this is the outcome... I feel like crying out whenever the word 'results' is said. There is no point for me to keep brooding over this. I kept wondering whether I should be allowed to have fun because I've not met my expectations. I just have to focus on netball trainings right now... Trainings with my new coach, Ms Teoh have been quite tough since the first training but I'm getting used to it. She teaches us more skills. I have even termed the training with her as 'Terror Training'. The day before the second training with her, I was so scared... *sigh* Wonder what's going to happen on tomorrow's training?