Updating you again... today, basically... it was a tiring day for me. I had netball training in the morning and the training was delayed by the traffic jam by 1/2 an hour. When we arrived there, training began. The sun was glaring and it was humid, I sweated crazily. I guess I got sunburnt. Today's training was a disappointment for me once again. I can't understand why I would always be so ' blur ' in crucial times of the training. I got scolded by Ms Teoh several times and I am upset. I have termed myself to be ' DUMB '. I know I'm not like that, but that's the way I work/train-mindlessly. It's only on certain occasion that I'm like that, on other occasion, I'm focused on training. I will train my Best to BE THE IDEAL NETBALLER OF ME!!!

I'm here to update you once again... woo... so swiftly, 1 year have passed. I would have say that I had worked hard for the whole year as the results that were printed in the report book came to my surprise. I didn't thought my level ranking would be that good, however, I dropped a class ranking. It was quite a pleasant week for me. Enjoying the company of my friends and my family during this period. The most funny thing is that i beat Mabel in the level ranking... she was so furious because she lost to me by 0.1%. I was 11th and she was 12th. Netball trainings have been fun and enriching. Our coach, Ms Teoh, teaches us many skills on netball. She seem to be picking on me... maybe I'm too sensitive. Alright...that's all... for today!

Hi... today's Ms Lim's birthday. I went to Compass Point the day before to select a suitable present for her with Debbie, however, they were either too expensive or unsuitable. In the end, I decided on a bear which was quite cute to me. I am getting frustrated with Elly. She does whatever she wants and totally ignored my feelings. I don't know what to do/say about myself, I don't know how to defend or fight for my rights. I am filled with sadness the day I've gotten my results, although the results were acceptable to many people, it was not up to my expectations. I kept asking myself why??? I've studied hard and why can't I have met my expectations? I stayed up late till the middle of the night to prepare myself and this is the outcome... I feel like crying out whenever the word 'results' is said. There is no point for me to keep brooding over this. I kept wondering whether I should be allowed to have fun because I've not met my expectations. I just have to focus on netball trainings right now... Trainings with my new coach, Ms Teoh have been quite tough since the first training but I'm getting used to it. She teaches us more skills. I have even termed the training with her as 'Terror Training'. The day before the second training with her, I was so scared... *sigh* Wonder what's going to happen on tomorrow's training?

Hiya.... I am belated today. I've just finished my Final Year Examinations. I just don't know why I don't feel like enjoying myself, perhaps I've studied too much and burned my brain. I had only felt relieved and so happy just after I've finished my last exam. My happiness was only ' short term '. But, so what? Next week, there will be games and I'll be getting back my results. Furthermore, Ms Lim's birthday is on next friday, 22rd Oct. I don't know what to get for her. Actually, my team and I intended to get her a timex watch which I think she liked, because I saw her looking at it at a shop. However, Siew Hong says it will be like we are are cursing her ' song zou ' in chinese. So, we will have to decide on another item. Recently, I think I am suffering from infatuation to a guy. He's so quiet and I guess shy that when he and I sms, we don't know what to chat about. However, he's cute and tall that's why I like him, but it's just infatuation... I think. Alright... I shall stop here...

Hihi... haven't been updating you since... I have forgot... Well... have many things to let you know. I have succeeded in doing many things the way I want in my life right now. I am doing well in my studies right now, just got to prepare for my upcoming exam. I have matured much, I think things in my perspective. I feel that I've changed alot, my friends said that I have became very rough. I don't know why, but if in any way, I have offended anyone, please forgive me. I've been stressed lately. Some things are sweet while some things are hard on me. I don't know why, but if you think I may be happy, I am seriously not. I have a crazy, maybe bad to me(but not you) past. I realised that sometimes I have to laugh at something which ain't funny to me during netball trainings. I want to train during netball trainings.... Ms Lim keeps putting her attention to the Sec. Ones. I want a new coach... We don't seem to be keeping on the track. It's not that Ms Lim is not a good coach, it's just that I want to train and focuse. Maybe because she's been focusing on the juniors lately, I shouldn't blame her. She's really odd, go shopping, shop untill so solemn... don't know what to say. After all, she's the person whom taught me many values in life that I'll never ever forget. I think I'm boy crazy lately... don't know what to say... Bye!

Hi... today, I'm very sad.  I realized that most of my friends are turning into bad teens and me myself too. Netball trainings by our own were mot really trainings as we seem to only play court games most of the time. Recently, I regretted something... I shouldn't have come online every night to play Gunbound or to chat with someone. I am confused by someone's doing and I just don't understand why it's like this. I am confused!!! I hope this person will make it clear to me of what he's doing and I will stop pondering over this matter...

Hi again... today it has been a normal day for me. It's just that i arranged to meet Amanda before going home and we chat as we walked home. Haha... Ms Lim said that Amanda and I resembles in character. I don't know why, these few days, I am often distracted by something that is happening. I can't concentrate and I'm afraid that it will affect my studies. Woohoo.. my hair has grown long enough to tie it up. However, it looks like a broom when I tie my hair... :D * Sigh * so sad... I can be able to cheer people up but nevertheless not myself. Yippee... tomorrow there's netball training... so happy to see my team-mates. Okie, I've gotta go! See Ya!

Sorry... I didn't had the time to update my blog. I have been rather busy. Oh well... let's start! Today, i had netball training. It was quite fun as we learnt how to drive into free space and position ourselves. The court game went on smoothly after several drills have been done. I can see that Ms Lim is satisfied with the court game. She was all smiles after the game. I don't know why, but i do not feel satisfied with myself after every single court game that i've played. I realised that I need encouragement, I need encouragement from Ms Lim and my team-mates... Today, every ball that have been passed to me, i fail to pass it to another team-mate. My team-mates lost trust in me, and seem to refuse to pass the ball to me after several attempts. I feel sad... Hehe.. many things have happened to me these few days. They are quite memorable to me. Alright! I have got to go, Bye! =P

Woohoo... I have had my Cross Country yesterday. Guess what? I came out 2nd in place and received a large trophy but not as big as Amanda's as she was 1st. Let me briefly say about my experience. It was a cool Friday morning. I ate a light breakfast and was taken to MacRitchie Reservoir by my Dad. Soon, the compeitiors for the 3rd race prepared themselves and proceeded to the starting point. When I arrived at the starting point, I was simply so nervous to speak. Some of the compeitiors told me that they wanted to run with me. But, what's the difference of running alone and running with another compeitior? Soon, the race started and I started by going fast alittle to get away from the crowd. When i arrived in the forest, I already felt like giving up, a sense of giving up in me, but I didn't do so. When i arrived at the point where girls and boys go different routes, I knew that this part was the most difficult for me to overcome. There were so many rocks and they were especially large. I was crawling my way up and the muscles were like burning and they were hurting. This was the part where most people feel the strong urge to give up. However, I tried to keep focuse and went ahead to overtake Mabel. I jogged briskly and I was right beside Amanda. She realized I was there and she faster her pace. She stopped several times and I had to tap my hand on her shoulders to encourage her. When you are so exhausted, even lifting your hand is a difficulty to you, and I had to do that several times I guess. Amanda, my mei, and I jogged towards the finishing line and I somehow looked back and I saw my coach, Ms Lim! She actually came to run in our race, actually she had already hint to me that she wants to run and compete with me. I guess she thinks to highly of me but I think otherwise. Then today, I went to SRJC and i intended to support Amanda in her Frisbee game, I ended up playing inside the games. I played Captains Ball and won yet another trophy. Haha... really enjoyed my day today... especially in the morning with Amanda and her friends... Alright! See Ya!

Hmmm... Cross Country is just 2 days away... Ms Lim is so excited as she has expressed her feelings during our netball training today. She told us that she really hoped that we will take up the the top 15 in the race. In a msn chat with her a few days ago, she said she'll be rooting for me and all that kind of stuff.. instead of getting power from her encouragements, I feel stressed. She and my team-mates kept hinting or saying that I'll win and take up the first few places. I really hope or wished I can accomplish her wish or command... I couldn't accopmlish her wish this year as my team and I lost in the netball tournament. Thinking of it, I regretted not training hard enough last year and this year I had to suffer for it. However, half a year has passed and soon a year would pass and, I hope my team-mates and I would be back on the tournament court to beat our opposing team with veageance. I kept thinking these few days... I'm with a flu and it had been a week, I had taken my flu medicine and still I have not recover. I really, really pray that Friday, my flu will at least disappear in the morning and come back in the afternoon. I realized I'm afraid of challenges ahead... How?! " CHARLENE, C'MON BE STRONG! "

I feel like a failure today... I've never felt this way before. Today, during netball training, Ms Lim made us run around Punggol and to Hougang and back to school. I was put at the back to guide Hui Ee and those who slack behind. I kept telling them to ' Jia You! ' and to keep running but none of them seems to listen... so fed up at that time, when I've persuaded them several times already. When we were about to get back to school after the long 5km, I felt the sense of giving up but I didn't, don't know why... Well, I feel that my relationship with my team-mates are drifting apart or further. In school, my class, today, a girl could curse and swear at a teacher and even say it's her right to scold the teacher. I feel like helping the teacher but I couldn't do anything, plus she's a friend of mine. I am seeing my friends grow into monsters and I'm turning into one too... What can i do? Feel so helpless... my friends are scolding vulgarities in class and I can hear them anytime in class... I have even began saying the word ' Wah Lao! '

Grrr... so sicked of Sundays... It's always so boring and dull. My parents always leave us at home and go out by themselves. Wonder when will my life on Sundays ever brighten? Haha... but I'll get to sleep at home and rest through the day, however, I hate to slack. I believe slacking leads me to a disadvantage of myself, people are improving themselves all over the world and I'm here slacking...zzz... I hate the word " SLACKING! " So bored... grrr... Tomorrow, it will be back to school! Hurray! I'm kind of crazy today. Let me plan what shall I do the coming next Sunday. Oh well, I had better pray that the weather will be favourable to me and I can swimming with my family. Oh ya... Amanda, my netball junior is officially my mei mei...don't tell you how she became my mei mei, very funny. Alright... See Ya!

Today just had a training at MacRitchie Reservoir, I don't know why... but it's like I've run for many times till the distance that I ran seem short and quick. Maybe earlier on I was running at the back with Pei Wen they all and we were chatting, that's why I forgot how long was the journey. I'm so afraid, today when I was about to finish my run, i saw Ms Lim and it's like she was placing her hopes on me to win. Well, I pretty tired after that, I slept right through the afternoon. Oh ya... I just received news that I was 3rd in my class and 14th in the level. After all that hardwork, I still lost to Debbie by missing a point. I got 74.1, she had 75.1... She was 2nd in class. Alright... I will write till here...

Today is a fun but tired day for me... Ms Lim conducted games such as Captains Ball. Siew Hong told me to join their group so I did so. As you know they think I'm tall, so they stationed me on the chair to receive the ball whenever they wanted to score. I didn't even had a single chance of getting down on the parade square to play, I felt used. However, I'm not very fit today, still a little unwell. 2A also ended up competing and they had a fierce compeition with 2C. They were the victory and proceeded to the final session. Siew Hong and I were the Combined Class team and we had to compete against our class 2A. In the end, our team, C.C won. Classmates in my class began to say I and Siew Hong betrayed them and we should have joined the 2A class. Some people even asked me this lame question, " Why you grow so tall??? " How am I going to answer this particular question? I don't think I'm so tall, so many people out there are taller than me, so why should they think this way? Maybe I'm taller than them. Cross Country is nearing, and I'm still with a bad flu, I don't know how am I going run and be Top 10 in this condition? I had better get well soon...

Today is such a boring day... I don't think I will be going out later. Yesterday, I went to swim to tan myself, however when I arrived there, the weather changed and it became cloudy, the Sun was covered by the clouds and i didn't know how was I going to tan. Today, I intend to go East coast to cycle, but the weather seems unfavourable to me. I don't know why, ever since the exams ended, I seemed to become saddier and not happier. Only the day after the examinations, I was belated. My life seems to be in grey and black shades, don't know why...

I am so belated... my examinations are over. During the holidays, I intend to tan myself till I'm satisfied... Tomorrow, my parents intend to take me for a swim...hehe. On the other hand, when I think about the both of them, I can't help but keep brooding about it. Oh gosh... I haven't been exercising recently, I have to do something about it. I have recently watched a show ' Dolphin at the Bay '. The story is so saddening, so many crying about love. I intend to keep myself fully occupied during the school holidays... Alright.. shall stop here..

I am so sad... Chocolate hold Mei Xuan's hand... I saw it with my own eyes. Don't know what to say, hate both of them right now. I don't want to see them again. They have always walked home together, and I often see them. I don't want to see it... I am jealous... so heartbroken... the image of them together keep apearing in my head. Can't stand it... tomorrow is mine Mathematics exam and I am not really prepared for it. Alright... good bye

Hi there... once again. So scared of tomorrow... tomorrow may be the only opportunity to pursue my dream. I guess God knows I'm a indecisive girl, thus, he laid an opportunity right in front of me to grab it. I don't know how I will fare in tomorrow's selection, however, i noticed something. Some of the 4 chosen dosen't seem really bothered by tomorrow's event. I am so afraid the people in-charge of the selection, would take me away from Pei Wen and the rest. Ms Lim, how I wish you were there to aid us. But, you can't possibly run here and there and see to us. You are such a mummy to us if you really did that. However, you are always my mummy/ sister*, hehe. I am dead meat.. I know how to go there...but don't know how to come back... Maybe ask my dad to come and drive me.

Hi there... I have a piece of good news here. I've won the Chinese Handwriting Contest in first place for Secondary 2 level. Actually, I knew about it long ago... I was informed by Ms Zhang Lian. However, i'm sad that many have said that my handwritten piece that is on the board is not very nice among the other 2 pieces. Some even said that the teacher that had marked my piece had stamp pasted on her eyes. Forget about it! I don't care about what others think but only what i think and what god thinks of me. Recently, I have seen my netball coach, Ms Lim to be upset and she seems to be bothered by something. I can't help it and be concerned. She doesn't seems to be concerned about matters in netball, maybe because she is very busy. I don't blame her for that, however, she isn't very close to us, the Sec. 2 girls, anymore. I'm so sad... can't forget how happy we spent our time together last year, especially during the netball camp. It's very saddening but I know everything that we have will leave us one day. There's nothing I can do about it.

Aww... I'm growing fatter. I have been eating like a pig, the past few days. Guess what? I've gain weight, aww!!! Terrible!!! However, I feel happier eating like a pig, haha. I had better control my diet, later grow very fat. I'm having my English common test tomorrow... so scared! Ms Farah said that it is not going to be an easy one for us. Yeah! Tomorrow, we have PE and netball, time for me to lose some weight to get back onto track. Tomorrow, if Ms Lim is going to make us run 2.4 km around the school with time limit, I'm going to be dead meat! I have to meet the time limit of 10 mins! Faint.... Ok, see ya!