what the hell... just now updated but the post was missing, so decided to update another. Yupz.. this few days got lots of rumours roaming about, bout this guy called 'Melvin' who likes me and all that... they asked me to stead with him and all that... got somemore 'so-called' rumours la... not bad ones la... Feeling so weak this few days because that stupid Mabel keep on fighting with me and she injured me... Ouch! I hate her la... no la... I love her more than I hate her loh... diao -.- then got this online guy Lenzy who keeps asking me out and I rejected because of.... haha... Exams round the corner... being stressed... today went to the library and then met Jay Lloyd and the gang there, then began passing paper planes and all that... the msg they sent back made me laugh my head off... haha.. okie.. shall end here.. bye

hieez... bloggie... didn't have time to update u yesterday... Well, today was a rather tiring day once again because the mid-yr is up-close, and I've to buck up. I want netball trainings! It is the only time when I can relax and train my stamina too... I miss trainings, although they're rather strenuous... Nonetheless, I have to balance up my life... between play and study. Wahaha... as I say, in my previous bloggie, that Mabel has an impt impact on me... She came up to me in school and said that to me too... so funny... can't stand it huh... she's always making me laugh endlessly, even if she just stand there and act stupid/blur, I can giggle to myself... Other people might think, " EEk... why this siao gurl giggling to herself one... insane... ". But, I'm not giggling to myself but at Mabel. Then yesterday, I met my primary sch friend at a bus-stop... She's Kam Hui Li.... yet another person whom I'll never forget in my entire life... She played a role in my primary school life when I was young which caused me to grow up to be such a girl with such a mindset. I don't wish to recall what had happened... don't bother asking me even because this will remain as a secret in my life... deep down... so... I went to call her and chatted with her... wanted to ask her out to meet and talk.. but then I realized that it was not like the past anymore, I can't really communicate with her. I miss playing with her when we were young in the primary school. It's like how Mabel and i are fooling around now after recess... really kiddy... but i still enjoyed it, because... it's fun! Haha... I also got to know this new girl whose name is Irene... she's really smart and i find her mystique too... don't know how to describe la... so tired... alright.. going to bed now... see ya!

hieya... today, I'd to do CIP hours which is to go actually centrepoint but due to error, we were asked to go to plaza singapura... I find that actually some singaporeans do have a heart, especially there was this indian man who donated once and later he saw me there at the same place, he donated a second time which was really sweet lah... he said I was doing a good deed and later said that he was willing to donate. I am trying to focus on my studies lately, however, who's willing to help me in my a maths and chemistry? I really need someone's help! Then, that Jay Lloyd keep asking me who do I like... so I lied to him I'm attached already. Somehow... I feel like getting attached, however, my studies are like a large signboard by the side of my brain shining brightly and signalling to me what is important first... next, I have this medium size board which is very colourful and bright filled with primary colours. All this make up my brain, then I have this very important part in the centre of my brain which states family centre... I have to divide my life into these 3 parts, and if one is not doing well, the rest will be adversely affected too... if I'm doing well in all 3, I feel blessed... haa.. Where to I get another space or time to squeeze in another attachment? *Sigh... Stay focused... My netball coach made this statement to us during the last training, " when u're stressed, go and jog..." And, I really believe in that.. well, maybe tomorrow morning I'll go and jog... haha...

hiezz.... bloggiez... had a pretty stressful day today. Basically, these few days have been rather down for me because of the formulas of a and e maths that i've to stuff into my brain. Also having the teachers rushing through all the chapters just to make it in time for the mid-yr exams. However, school have been rather interesting lately too, because I have Mabel that sweetie-pie who's always keeping me laughing all the way except during lessons. I love the period after Mabel and I have finished our recess and we are both making our way to our classroom. She would always spank my butt if I was to go up first then we'll fight all the way up to our classroom which is at the fourth storey. After that, sweating profusely and all messed up. However, she has been rather evil to me by saying that i'm stupid and slow to me several times this week just because she advanced me in several of the tests. It dampened my spirits and self-esteem, makes me feel like a helpless creature... Dosen't she knows that she's the most important person in school to me, whatever she's going to say will have an impact on me definitely. Just want to let people out there whom have been guiding me, a big thanks to U! I love u all! However, I'm not a perfect person although I tend to be a perfectionists. Then again, this guy ben always never fail to quite cheer me up, haa.. not actually... but i'm hearing the song that he sent me at this moment. Something really weird happened to me just now. Someone who said he was Melvin smsed me and said that he'd liked me for a long time and wants me to stead with him... Then, asked him for his email, it turned out it was Jay Lloyd's and it was Jay who was making fun of me... Such a fool of me... to actually believe what he said. Stupid JayLloyd, gonna make u embarrassed on mon... fool around with my feelings.. idiotic...

hieez... bloggie... feeling sad again... i failed my e maths test when I felt it was simple and then today there was a sudden pop quiz.. and i scored 2/10. I'm in deep shit... had better stay focused and work hard. I don't want to end up dropping my a maths. That mabel ar, she keeps on saying she wants to challenge me to this and that, although I feel that it's okie, I am pressurissed by her. Hmm, then got this guy, ben who's really weird lah. I have a feeling that all that he's talking about is implying to me. Don't say I buai ba lah... But, I feel that he shouldn't be liking me if so, because of some problems that i've and that if he knows, he cannot accept one. That is also why I want to remain single... hey ben, if ya want to know... go and ask mabel ba... just want to be frank with u... haha... but i guess u're just infatuating ba... so u'll sure get over me soon IF SO... haha

heelo... bloggie... feel so down.. u know, mabel is now nicknamed the 'Queen of 400m'... and i am the 'Princess of 400m' because she came in 1st and i 2nd. Well... the funny thing is... the later generation will ascend the throne... so next year I shall beat mabel and ascend the throne... wahaha! Siao bo... *sigh... Last week was full with tests and this week's full with projects to finish up, so busy that I'm unable to breathe. No lah, still able to sit by the computer and unleash my stress into this blog. Mabel is so damn rough man... she kicks me.. and then we'll end up in a fight, so often these days that everyone in class says we are mad... then today, i and mabel fought again... Amelia sat there and say... " Aiyo, 2 girls rape each other untill like that ar... " . I laughed my head off and prepared for lessons.... Hmm... got to know this guy, Benjamin... feel that he's not bad a guy but it says otherwise by mabel and friends... I don't know lah... Okie.. have finished updating u for today..

woo... long time haven't been updating u... have been so busy you see... Well, yesterday was my sports day and I took part in 400 m and 4 by 100m relay. However, my main focus was 400m, maybe because Mabel was taking part in it too. I was quite determined to beat her, however, sadly, I lost to her by a few metres. I came in 2nd, sad case, don't wish to reminscise it again. It's painfully a regretfully event, haha.. kidding, since i've lost to her, I've to work harder for next year's event. As it is said, greater success comes after failure. So Mabel, see ya on the track next year... Hee hee... however, I sort of also don't feel sad that i lost to Mabel... i don't know why, maybe because we both have been fighting in school so often that I feel the least regret that I lost to her... That's because i love her as a great friend to me. Haha... didn't guess I would say such a thing... wahaha... siao.. okie... maybe losing to Mabel has burnt my brain... okieee... see ya.. shall update u soon...

*sigh*... I'm so sad... I like this guy from another class. Okie, let me be direct and open. I don't want to suffer anymore, keeping this in my heart. Haha... not really suffering bahx. However, this guy has got a girlfriend already, and I heard she's very chio(pretty). Actually, this particular guy is my kor lah. He dosen't know. I hope he dosen't know either because if he knows, it's gonna be very weird. The reason I made him my kor because I knew he's attached and i don't want to be an extra. Aiya... don't know lah. The feeling is weird too. Because, since I was sec. 1, he's the apple in my eyes then. Whahaha... I'm crazy already. Well, maybe it's infatuating too bahx? Hope so... that the feelings will go away...

hello... didn't came to update you for ages. Really miss vending all my frustrations at you. 1st term have passed and I only managed to pass all my subjects and have yet to score my A1s. I strive to score A1s but this time, with E maths and A maths, it ain't helping me to score more. I have to practise harder now. Action speaks louder than words. I am so frustrated, basically, there is a guy I have known through maple story and i went to meet him personally. He was very average-looking but i can say he's not my kind. However, he was very easy to get along with and chat with, then... one day, he said he wants to woo me. He said that he wanted to spend his remaining days before he went to NS with me fruitfully. I couldn't accept him, but i can accept him as a friend. I guess he was heartbroken... haa. Hey, lenzy if u're reading this now, I hope u will understand. Yeah... this friday, we'll be having the class barbecue at pasir ris.. wha haha... Yipeeeee........ Me signing off...

hello... yesterday... we just had a match with sengkang secondary. It was a tough match for us as we were playing against people who were more matured and older than us. They consisted of Sec.4s and we were a combination of Sec. 2 & Sec.3s... they were not very skilful in anyway. If we had better belief in ourselves and better communication, we could have won. I was playing in the game in the last quarter, the only quarter I got to play, and i realized that it was so damn difficult to pass the throw-ins... no one wanted to come out for the ball as everyone were exhausted. My only option was Siew hong who was always the encouraging and ongoing one... or either Elly. Elly, I must say... have changed alot since the first days of the game... she has become more passionate about the game and has more intiative? She is willing to run 5 rounds around the school with mabel as their stamina is not really good... She has a good attitude... well, maybe she might even outshine me as a GK.. don't worry... i'll continue to improve and work hard on my bad points and finally I want to play like the nickel GK at the Daisy Tan Carnival!!!
( MY ONLY OPPONENT IS MYSELF ! )

hi diary... today was a stressful day for me... The night before I was packing my schoolbag and I realized that i had A Maths and E Maths lessons today. Furthermore, i couldn't do the sums that was given to me during my A maths lessons. I was frustrated and fed up. However, today when i went to school to resolve the maths problem, i realized that i did a careless mistake... Or else i could have gotten the correct answer. I was rather stressed the past few days as my netball tournament is coming up( this coming monday). And, I had to cope with subjects that were new and unfamiliar to me. Well, to cope with these problems, I tried to be positive and tell myself that everything would turn out fine... and I mixed around my friends and we make laughter... that was how i reduce my stress... Quite constructive, huh?

here to update you again... school has reopen... and I was caught in school for having my hair brown. I coloured it back to black, so sad... I'm so afraid of A Maths... well... I don't know. Recently, I've been worn out by trainings for the carnival yesterday and the stress faced in Sec. 3. I am afraid I can't cope... I still haven't find enough confidence to believe that I can cope and pass all my subjects with flying colours. Everyone in my class is smart and it put stress on me. Just have to stay focused and work hard... yawn!

Ho...ho..ho.. today is Christmas Eve! Well, nothing special happened. The only thing that was exciting was in the morning when my parents took my sister and I to Jalan Kayu to have the well-known Roti Prata. My Dad ordered a speciality drink called the Dinosaur. It was Iced Milo topped with cocoa powder and whipped cream. It was a nice drink. I was tired after that and i went back to sleep at home. Soon, it was noon and I remembered that I had to meet Debbie and WeiLin at Compass Point for the christmas gift exchange. I called my little sister along. We dine at Captain Cook first and had a overall bloated meal for me and then decided we wanted to go kovan to take neoprints. It was rather frustrating because the machine operated in japanese language and none of us could understand. However, the pictures came out fine. We exchanged the gifts and my dad came to take me home together with my little sister. We then had dinner at Banquet in Compass Point and my day just ended like that... Boring...

Haha... today was a hilarious day for me. Today, I went back to school and there quite a number of Sec. 1s there. I went to the bookshop there to meet Amelia... then I saw a guy with cool hair inside the bookshop. His hair was so cool... sigh* you know what i mean... Then, that stupid Pei Wen thought I liked the guy with the red t-shirt and went to give him my number. Thank god the number wasn't delivered to that guy caused I was least the bit interested in him... well, maybe alittle... haha! Haha... didn't realized that I could actually forget a guy so easily, you know who I am implicating. Overall... I had a fun and hilarious day today with Pei Wen. She's really funny. Ouch! My back hurts! Maybe I've exerted myself too much, my back really hurts and this is not the first time it has happened. It is sometimes difficult to bend down even... Oww...

Today, I had netball training again. We did the normal stuff... then proceeded to the court game. Something surprising happened to me today. I met Mario at the bus-stop when I was about to board the bus. He had boarded the bus together with me, however, I pretended i didn't saw him. I was angry with him for not replying to the messages I've sent him. So he acted cool and I acted cool too... There was nothing much I could do. He always acted cool and was so quiet... He was wearing basketball shorts so i guessed he was going for a game of basketball. Well, after all, why was I talking so much about him? It's because I like him... but so what? It's just infatuation... well... infatuation for one and a half years... Sigh* just forget him... He's not the only guy in the whole wide world I must like only, right? Change the subject. Then, I saw Terence also when I was having my training... he was making a fool of himself by laughing so loudly and indecently. Haha, I laughed like that too... Alright... I'm going to sleep...

wah....! I'm gaining weight... It's not because I've eaten alot, but because I played netball and gained muscles... ahhh...!!! How? How?! I'm deadmeat... I guess I'd better not eat too much meat. My mum cooks meat everyday, so maybe that's why i've gain tons of muscles. My waistline has also widened because of the muscles at my side. What the heck... Oh well, I'll change the subject. Sigh*... nothing much to write anyway. Bye!

Here to update you once again... Tomorrow, there's netball training and i don't know how am i supposed to face Ms Lim. It's like I've explained to her the problem and right now i find it difficult to face her. Maybe, I feel awkward. School is beginning soon... and i've began to read up on books to update my brain cells, or maybe call it refresh my brain cells. I've began to write on the notebook that Ms Lim have gave me. While I was writing, it seem as if I was reading all my problems to her in person, but if that could ever happen, she could be my consultant. However, I don't really have alot of problems. All have got to do with netball and my teenage life. My life is rather boring... I want to be occupied with stuff to do so that i will not think about nonsence. However, I'm not a robot, humans need a break too. Well, I've got nothing much to do, that's why I'm here to update you. There's another problem right now for me to face. You see, I haven't been chatting up with Debbie and meeting her to keep our friendship going, so right now it's like I'm afraid to meet her. Alright, I can't say much further, bye!

hee... I had just break camp yesterday... however, the night before, I had went home to cut my Mom's birthday cake. I find it a little lame, to go home at 9.30 pm to cut the birthday cake. But, she's my mother after all... and i love her. I've been pressured lately because of something that happened at netball. However, I've clarify things with my coach, Ms Lim. Basically, I realized that I failed to trust what she was doing and was afraid of the outcome. Last year, it was the same... She trained Rachel occasionally and I was so afraid that i couldn't get into the team and play in the seven. That was why I was so paranoid about this and afraid that it would happen again.. However, I am certain i would be sharing my position with Elly and Rachel. Recently, I've been inspired or spurt to be a GS... If I was determined about this, I would go and learn from PeiWen. It would be good for me as i would understand the movements of the GS or GA and defend better. It would also increase my chances of getting into the team... Alright... I am stressed and well.. maybe too eager to learn so many things at a time... Bye!

Yesterday, there was netball practice. The day before the practice, I did something that I would have never done. If you all want to know, then come for training and you will know( excluding outsiders ). Yesterday's training was rather strenuous. I also got scolded by Ms Teoh. Now I know I shouldn't be asking her questions when she's agitated or most probably angry. Today, I spent my day relaxing and lazing around. Well, I want to take a short nap... Shall update you soon!